hardy hardy hoo
i am super lesbians for my gf
Some thoughts of this lovely evening is how this weekend is me and my gf's SIX MONTHS!!! I can't believe it guys I'm literally the happiest little camper in all of lesbianville :3 Fun fact before our relationship I just had an Instagram crush. You heard it here! Your delusionships will turn real! Source: snorin on multiverse.
This is the longest relationship I've been in and I've never been happier!!!! IM GEEKING!!!! ohhhh man I love my girlf I cant freaking wait to see them again (we're on facetime as I write this). Anyhoo my gf is awesome so I'm just going to keep gushing about them. Last Friday our school had a concert with student bands performing AND MY AWESOME GIRLFY PERFORMED! They were on vocals and bass for such awesome music and guys. I was SWOONING. I cant believe they like me honestly. Like they're a cool rockstar and i enjoy doing puzzles and crosswords :3
i think we compliment each other :D
if u want - keni titus ^this is our song :<)
real life photo of my gf
FIRST [Page]
Hellloooo!1!1!1!1!!!
Extra things I like!!!
×BIRDS ×HORROR ×HISTORY ×SWEETS ×WRITING ×LISTENING×SLEEPING
Little Tidbits about me ❢
Things I HAAATTEEE!1!1!1!1!1
I LISTEN TO EVERYTHING AND I MEAN [Everything]. FAN SONGS, RAP, POP, METAL, INDIE, SONGS IN ANOTHER LANGUAGE,MUSICALS, AND EVEN SIMPLE THEMES OF CHARACTERS. IF YOU PLAY ANYONE, I'LL PROBABLY LIKE IT.
My name is [AMARIS]
×MONOPOLY[!?!1!!!]×NIGHT TIME ×SUN AND MOON POETRY ×1910s-2000s FASHION ×CARTOONS
. I LIKE TO TALK ABOUT MY [Original Characters] AND LOOOVEE MAKING SOME FOR MY [Interests]. I ALSO SOMEHOW GET INTO .THE MOST NICHEST THINGS, [I swear!!]. I'LL TRY AND HEAR YOU OUT NO MATTER .WHAT!!!
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I'm SUUUPER FUN TO TALK TO!!!REFER TO [My friends!!]
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I REALLY LIKE JoJo's Bizzare Adventure,
Studio Investigrave games, the Scream franchise, Horror RPGS, Alice in Wonderland media, FNAF {If it wasn't obvious}
AND
WILLIAM AFTON
WILLIAM AFTON
WILLIAM AFTON
WILLIAM AFTON
WILLIAM AFTON
WILLIAM AFTON
WILLIAM AFTON WILLIAM
÷BOILED VEGGIES ÷CHERRIES ÷MISCHARACTERISATION÷GETTING SICK ÷RIDING IN CARS ÷BAD ROMANCE MEDIA ÷TOXIC FANS ÷CLOSEMINDED PEOPLE ÷MISINFORMATION!!
TIKTOK:- @no_dingdong
DISCORD:- nauseaxe_404.
SPACEHEY:- Amaris💯
SPOTIFY:- Daxhatesspotify
✆﹏Socials
I HAVE[Trypophobia]!!OOOO AHHH!!!!! I MAYYY GET ANGRY BUT NEVER AT YOU! I WANT TO BE A [Voice Actor]! I'M FROM [Maldives] I DO NOT GIVE A [Hyperlink Blocked] ABOUT WHAT YOU CALL ME! I HAVE A PET BIRD [Gray]THAT I LOVE VERY MUCH!!!!!!!! I AM.. PRETTY BROKE....
my really (un)interesting thoughts #15
Boss(a nova)
HELLO INTERNET! happy monyay to ALL! YAY. monyay. of HELL WEEK. oh my god thi week is going to be too Freakin turnt for me. spirit week.. spring dance... everything. oh man. welp. We keep on keepin on. debrief this week: my class today was so Normal. almost.. too... normal... Jk. we started another song thats NOT tenor madness.. and it was Awessome it was (BOSS)A NOVA. Song for Mai Fatherrrrr. so FIre. Omg. on both Piano &drumsssssssss its so COOOLLLLLLL its like REAl LIFE AWESOME. but i still suck at my scales. and its still EMBARASSING. ugh. idk how to be good i literally practiced. Will try my best. Trust. nayyyyyyyy... >3<... Erm honestly not much to report today. Wow. what kind of monyay is this. ok first of all the fit was fire so 80s Asstheticcccccccc (one of those color block windbreakers). King. he asked me what 8 x 3 was for some reason.. soemthing abt the sheet music.. and i DID IT WITH MY FINGErS and i was so embarssing. i almost died. irl. he looked So diappointed actually like my whole generation is failed because i cant do 8 x 3 in my head. ITS NOT MY FAULT MATH ISNT MY FREAKIN SUBJECT JESUSSSSSSSSSSS BROOOOOOOO. but i Ate the friggin comping.. its so fun to Undedrstand OMmmggg :3. and bossa nova is SO FUN to play and do and everything i Love it so much. totally so COOOOOOOOOOL. i love feeling. so. Stupid. every. monyay. HAaaaaaaahhhhhhhh..
SONG OF DA WEEK #1
BY DESCENDENTS
OTHER AWESOME SONGS OF DA WEEK
" I wanna be stereotyped
I wanna be classified
I wanna be masochistic
I wanna be a statistic
I wanna be a clone!
I want a suburban home!!!!!!!!!!"
BY L'IMPERATRICE
BY LA FEMME
"The wild escape
Disoriented, she takes herself
On a lunar safari
The sudden Odyssey
Far from a solar memory
The moon"
lyrics translated from French
lyrics translated from French
Seriously. dont think i ever feel more stupid. eff it we balll. nayways im jsut so excited. for Bosa ovaaaaaa. so Super cool. smooth jazz troll irl... or smooth jazz nyan cat (just discovered today)(i love nyan cat)( i got in trouble for watching nyan cat vids in class with my Biffle Bae today)(i was so emabrassed). speaking of Jazz.... my teacher advisor girl idk shes the advisor for the team im on is literally Kinda being weird abt things... like she was being so weird abtwanting to join jazz band.. and other things.. idk.. i think i need to distance myself cuz like she treats me like we r bffs.. Girl ur my teacher. u cant be my bff... Haha... PLEASE. and i think... i might not take her class next year if i get into jazz band... i dont know if i can handle her THAT much. it becomes this weird relationship where she treats me like we r bffs on the same level but then also shes my teacher. so obviously she has that over me and can use the "oh we r bffs ur literally my secretary adopted daughter" card on me when she wants..her way...but also she has authority and is a person of power over me.. so she can use it.. like to convince me or something.... like with jazz band.. or other things. and i know she wouldnt use it to her advtange in a WEIRD way. its just odd... and teacher student boundaries are def being crossed...... YIKES. i think i might just stop telling her things abt me. honestly i nkow she'd be so mad if i didn't take her class next year over Jazz band... but thats just the thing. shed be MAD. youre my teacher!!!! its MY life. ur like 40. and haeve 3 kids. Ok sorry. its just been bothering me lately.. shes a Queen. i swarrrr.... i just need to Stay Aware.
"Pale night, darkness falls, not a woman to be seen
You wonder how you will make it through, once at the mercy of the red birds
And suddenly, you remember this secret so well-kept:
"Our is not to do or die, our is to smoke and stay high"
the french people came and now i LUV Dem French Tunes. so. FIREEEE. the ones on the left are my highlightss. the electronic synth sound of France is so beaitful i Died. Help im soooooooooooo tired. last week i went to that jam session Tingyyyyy my teacher told me to go to with my Biffle Bae and it was soooooooooooooo Funny.... like it was a bumch of Hip Col teens all there... but they all KNEW eachother.. and we were like 30 mins late so we jsut kinda sat in the corner for 2 hours and watched these kids improvise......... for two hours... No one.. aproaching us.. (to be fair we didn't apprach anyone either but Stilll. we r valid. Shy.. and Scared... Naked and Afraid.... IM SO TIRED OH MY GOSH) but i sitll had a Pawsome time :3 its cool Getting out there. and trying new things... even if they don't work out. ITS THE EXPERIENCE!!!!!!! AND IT WAS AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEE. i think my teacher thought it was a jazz thing and it wasnt anyways LOL. still. i knew dat going in. YOLO! OMG. my sister FREAKING GOT A GIRLFRIEND. jesus. LIKE A REAL LIFE OFFICAL GIRLFRIEND. Oh she needs Gods love for this. at least her girlf is SO FREAKING COOL oh my GODUHHHHHH. so CRAZY. AND ALSO my sister just got like two new tattoss. genuinely shes livin da life. but my parents will iterally disown her that is actually so crazy. i hope she wins everything *CRY EMOJIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII* i lvoe my sister so much actually shes my qUeen. so exctied for spring break. after HELL WEEEEEK. im so TIRED of the CYCLE i know i keep saying this but WHEN DOES IT END? IS THIS HOW LIFE JUST GOES ON FOREVER LIKE THIS? week weekend week weeke
like GOD im sick of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WHEN DOES IT END WHENNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!! Help oh my GODUHHHHHHHHHHHh. (keeping the minsdset trust)i have to dress up tmrw and idk what as.. some music thing. i wanted to be a beastie boy but i dont want people to think im just a generic rapper... and idk how to make it clear im a beastie boy. maybe ill go full drag queen for Kevin Barnes (I LOVE YOU KEVIN BARNES OH MY GOD). Jeez this monyay was so short...lacked so much debrief... i had a Long Week. and i had SO MUCH HOMEOWRKKKKKKKK oh my hof i had to start this later than my normal time. the Grind. Keep. Grinding. im frgrinding. PLAEASE. LET ME GRINFd. im ging to fall asleep at my Freaking keyboard. i had to grind it out though. thanks all da monyayers... sorry for the disappointing monyay this monyay. ill come back strong next monyay. TRUST. TRUUSTTT!!!!
smooth jazz nyan cat says Baiii and Goodnight!!!
ermmmm,,,
i have no idea what i’m doing lmao
uhhhhhhh hi i'm Nobody! sorry if this looks bad, i was a bit confused with the setting up thingymajig but uhhhh yeah.
i'm a minor and i sometimes type like this to really sooth into the interwebs. big webs scare me tho im never gonna go there /j
i've been really interested on the old webs as of late, they seem so cool with such personality as well! i feel that this will really test it with such a cool idea here!
i don't really care about pronouns just use any/all on me i don't care lol
so cool,,,
I DONT LOOK LIKE THIS DONT WORRY
uhhhhh that's about it,,, cya in like... idfk like 42 years? maybe... yeah
introduction?!?!
insert three fire emojis
ok so im like kinda lazy to make my post look pretty n all, so im js gonna write n then remake it one day of these. also yea i kinda type like an edgar so im sorry. </3
my name is adonis, tho i also like being called cade.
ion care what pronouns u use on me but they/them is fine.
im mexican n i will mention that cuz hell yeah
alr now heres a long list of my interests cuz i cannot shut up abt all of this (CAPS ARE HYPERFIXATIONS!!)
general:
games:
music:
watch:
books:
oh i also really luv spawn, nightwing, n ghost rider. ngl i would do anything to look like one of them.
truly hope ion appear like some sigma male edgar cut dude, pls tell me yall see me as a coquette girlie.
idk what else to add so im gonna say that this is it, thats everything abt me. theres no more, this is me entirely.
literature, FOOTBALL (both of them), hannibal barca, the roman empire, CARS, sea creatures, greek mythology, renaissance art, law of talos / endzone, antiheroes.
THE STANLEY PARABLE (+ ultra deluxe), geometry dash, just shapes and beats, project sekai, COOKIE RUN, doom eternal, call of duty, halo, ea fc, portal.
im really hyper-masculine but im also js a girl. :3
RADIOHEAD, weezer, foo fighters, muse, rage against the machine, MOLOTOV, pxndx, soviet soviet, deftones, nirvana, THYRGRIM, mnhg, seventh angel, theocracy, XAVI, fuerza regida, peso pluma, BOSSFIGHT, excision, riot.
gladiator, suits, THE BOYS, the hudscuker proxy, mean girls, the twilight zone, american psycho, bungo stray dogs, moral orel.
carmila, the stranger, white nights, dead poets society, a certain hunger, american psycho, FAHRENHEIT 451, the song of achilles, schoolgirl, little women, brave new world, a little life, #murdertrending, no longer human, living dead girl, girl interrupted.
ME.
HELLO ! MY NAME IS EDWARD. AND I AIM TO BE A JACKASS EYESORE. THIS IS ONLY MY INTRO THOUGH.... SO ILL KEEP IT READABLE. I HAVENT BLOGGED BEFORE SO HERES A LITTLE BIT OF INFO OF ME.
I GO BY EDWARD. OR ED. OR EDDIE. OR EVEN CLYDE... OR JACK. JACKSON EVEN. I GO BY ALOT. WHATEVER YOU THINK SOUNDS THE WORST THEN USE IT.
I LIKE COMPUTERS... LEARNING CODE BY MYSELF. CLASSROOM WORK GOES TOO SLOW.
IM INTERESTED IN RESEARCHING MENTAL ILLNESSES AND I ASPIRE TO BE A FORENSICS SCIENTIST.
I GO BY HE HIM.
I KNOW FOR A FACT ILL LOOK BACK AT THIS IN... A MONTH, PROBABLY. AND CRINGE. BUT WHO GIVES A FUCK. FUTURE ME. SUCK A COCK.
I LOVEEEEE PUZZLES. LOVE EM.
NO, IM NOT A ROLEPLAYER DUDE... ITS 2024. I JUST REALLY LIKE THE RIDDLER.
ADD ME ON SPACEHEY. https://spacehey.com/riddlemaster IM COOL I SWEAR. DROP A DM.
ADD MY DISCORD. @unmasskthebat
BYE.
୨୧ introduction ⋆ﾟ⊹
HAI im marsie barsie , i love kaoru hakaze Can you tell . . . i found this site randomly & i really wanted to make my own little blog thing >< don't know how active ill be , maybe ill post my thoughts or whatever !!!
Hehe. There's no day off when it comes to love, you see~. ♪
i love hanabie , undead , slipknot , bmth , shinsei kamattechan , denkare , ily:1 , snake river conspiracy , dethtech , limp bizkit , drowning pool , hollow mellow , itzy , xdinary heroes , red velvet , mars argo , jack off jill , nu metal
uhm im super into kaoru hakaze , i would love to talk to you about him . DNI IF YOU THINK YOU LIKE HIM MORE THAN ME!!!!!! but ya i love my wife
he / him 5-6teen yr old who loves web design . and kaoru hakaze . BIG DISGUSTING YUMEDANSHI !!!! the only kaoru kisser ever :3
interests : editing , graphic design , penpalling , html / css , hamsters!! , ero guro esp takato yamamoto works , writing , vn rpg games , ensemble stars , yumesute , did i mention kaoru hakaze
if you want to chat , here are my socials
disc : flirtybastard
instagram : flopkaze
twt : oxigenical
journal entry no.??
2024/03/03
2024/03/03 ☆*: .
i return! trying out a slightly different way of formatting posts this time, using a lot more of the random images i have saved :D hopefully it both looks cool and also does a better job of communicating who i am or something
back to school, bought my plane ticket home (july 1), had to reject the same guy again.
read 19 more books (including dungeon meshi, the last herald-mage series, and two different catholic school shojou/proto-bl manga), working through the 20th (boswell's same sex unions in pre-modern europe).
been doing slightly less drawing, and what i have been doing has been mostly in ms paint.
looking forward to going home, but enjoying my time here.
what do i want to do with my life? how do i convince an elderly couple of farmers to adopt me as their own? if i want to be a farmer, why the hell am i going to school for an astronomy degree? should i learn piano? write a book? which book do i write? or is a comic a better medium? what about a series of greek vases? is my favorite book not good? will my mother ever be proud of me? will i ever remember the difference between perfect and imperfect tense? will the world collapse in 10 years or 20?
i've been playing a lot of minecraft recently. i think it's a game that shows the inherent goodness of humanity. our desire to build. our ability to collaborate. that we don't need governing systems to care for each other.
i think a lot about rodrigo of caledon. what is love? boswell says that humans usually don't even properly understand what they are feeling at a given moment, and are therefore much less able to accurately identify emotions in another person. rodrigo loves rustin. is it different than the way he feels for tresa, his fiance? yes. is either of those feelings inherently more 'true' or 'meaningful'? i don't think so. tresa and her relationship to roddy admittedly feels a bit more one dimensional than the relationship with rustin, but she can't help being a woman in a 90s fantasy novel. catullus once tells lesbia that he loves her "not only as a mistress, but in the way a father loves his sons." i didn't get it for a while, but when i was picking out quotes for this post, i reread the paragraph that drives me insane ("was this love? would i feel so for tresa, were she mine?") and finally took the time to think about the sentence proceeding it: "were he a child of my own flesh, i could feel no greater pain." ohhh. this. this is what catullus was talking about. i see. i get it.
i like reading and talking about love, but i've never experienced genuine romantic attraction in my life. or maybe that's not it, but i love everything to the point where singling out one person to love the most seems ridiculous. i think this is the monk/nun grindset. maybe i should become a priest. hmm.
iphis and ianthe is so underrated despite being the only surviving greco-roman myth about sapphics...
i'm nearly done watching lotgh! only 9 episodes (out of 110) left... maybe next post will be about why it's so good. maybe.
pax!
I would consider myself as a neet. I
rarely go outside, even if I do, I
only go somewhere like grocery store.
I don't go to school as well. Hmm, I
should avoid topics that trigger me.
My daily life is plain and boring, I
wake up, browse the Internet, and
sleep. I isolate myself from the
society as a coping mechanism. People
are scary after all. And my tattered
heart can't hold pain anymore. My
shut-in life is peaceful recently
(it was chaotic cuz of my family).
i made 3 onigiri 4 u...
⋆⊹˚₊ Intro ₊˚⊹⋆
Also just kind of testing out how to use this site lol
Magic / Ten
25 (26 soon)
She / They
NB Lesbian
Graphic Designer | Digital Artist
Inconsistent Twitch Streamer
Hobbyist Creative Writer
HTML Beginner
Amateur Video Editor
Beginner Synth Vocal Editor
Perler Beads | Kandi | Glass Painting
Slumber Party Host
Sleepiest Magical Girl
Cosplayer on Hiatus
Plushie / Figure Collector
Pixels sourced from Kittea-Paws, King-Lulu-Deer, and Silkanide on DA
Physical Media Collector
Manga Collector
₊ 𓎟𓎟 ⁺ ⸒ " HOLD IT ! " 𓂃 ♱
my name is elias
or doll / dollette.
cherub and seraphim are fine too.
i would prefer it if you asked if you can call me a nickname
my pronouns are . .
the flags, web badges, and symbols represent parts of my identity. the otherkin flags? in order, dollkin, ghostkin, zombiekin, angelkin, and fictionkin. these help me cope with feeling as if i am nonhuman / loss of identity, please be mindful of that :)
i like music.. music is my first love.
at the moment, i am really fixated on one of my first fandoms, ace attorney. ever since that, i've wanted to be a lawyer. i should still be one.
i am a yumedanshi (basically a selfshipper) and a fudanshi
somewhat blunt autistic, my empathy is fluid. i need tone tags, and i do use them. i talk a lot and tend to come off as annoying. + i self monitor and mirror people. basically a bunch of masking stuff. i need to be assured that i don't need to mask
i have schizophrenia as well.
i like studying psychology / psychiatry , philosophy, law, political science, religion, socialism (specifically marxism and anarchism, not too into communism yet
@objection on retrospring
@sweetsob on discord
@eliasphilic on tumblr
doll / dollself
he/him
no pronouns
saint / saintself
hy/hym
Vent maybe?
Ome wanted some dinosaurs
I really wish things were less complicated sometimes.
Had to cut contact with two long-time close friends because of a mess between them that I was caught in the middle of and now I'm just kind of lost. Oh well, life moves on.
The transition period between losing a trusted space and having to find a new one is always the lowest. But it's probably for the best I left and let them keep their own space instead.
At least we started cooking! Theo would probably like the fact if not for him having to clean up that one time water boiled over from the pasta when we went to the bathroom. Oops.
Alter that feels comfortable being angry save me
leap year 2024
“better to be laughed at than wrong!!!”
IT'S FEBRUARY 29TH!!!!
Normally for special days like today, I would create a little something to celebrate. However, I've been pretty stressed out lately and my schedule is tight.
I am supposed to be asleep right now, but I do not want to miss out on having fun during this leap year, especially since it is also the birth date of one of my favorite albums of all time.
Although this wasn't the album that introduced me to Lemon Demon, it was the one that got me hooked and helped me feel better when I was going through a tough time.
It's obvious that the band is known for its silliness, but nothing compared to the joy I felt when I listened to this album in full for the first time. Listening to Spirit Phone was like shedding my worries, every song is made of fun and they inspire me to create.
I could ramble about this album for longer, but sadly I don't have a lot of free time left. Happy birthday Spirit Phone!!!
picnic w me?
I'm afraid of change. I've felt depressed
for so long that I even find comfort in
it. It sounds weird for some people but
this makes sense to me. My flaws are the
reason why I'm here. If I become "normal"
I'm not able to express my negative
emotions. I'm afraid of happiness, it
feels like I'm floating and I don't know
when I'll fall and get hurt again. I
know life is full of up and down but
it's hard to live with this fragile soul.
It's okay, I'll keep surviving. ^_^
blog
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life is so exhausting sometimes lol. so much needs to be done but my brain cant follow thru for the life of me. my body is a mess too. no time to just sit and figure shit out
have to wait months to see another doctor about my issues and i quite literally cannot last that long with my job. hopefully i can find smth else
hopefully i can catch a break soon. i dont think i can keep up w everything if things keep fucking up or getting heavily delayed. on the upside, been drawing more lately. thats a good thing.
SOTD: false awakening - gupi
Free cream puff 4 u
Hi. This is my first blog.
I tend to make things simple
so I don't get overwhelmed.
My name is nemu. I'm a minor.
I'm infp-t. English isn't my
first language so please
forgive any of my grammar
errors. ^_^
I'm currently having therapy.
There might be many dark and
depressed content.
Please be kind to me.
-Every image/gif in my blog
don't belong to me unless I
mentioned it's mine. I found
them on Pinterest.
my really (un)interesting thoughts #14
HOP OFF RN. RN!!!!!!!!!!
yellow internet!
BY GAL COSTA
BY HAMID AL SHAERI
or.. more like SAD MONYAY! oh my god. because someone. will NOT HOP OFFFFF!!!!!!! sigh. well first of all... i got sick this weekend so i was so sad.. and i have cramps today.. and so i was EXTRA sad. but it wasn't that bad. i was so tired and sad today at school... (not rly). anyways. the MAN WHO WILL NOT FREAKING HOP OFF. so i walk into this studio. hes like Ok Brb lemme get Dem brushes. Okie. we start with dem drums. Okie. i learned this SUPER MEGA HARD STUFF. like. flim flams (....MY LITTLE PONY oh my GOSH) or something like that... like grace notes.. which iSUCK *cry* but i think it was the position of the pad anyway... and then we do BUZZ ROLLS. and if u dont know what theese STUPID THINGS ARE oh my goh its so hard the internet makes it look SO EASSY Help Me. im trying so hard. SO..HARD!! but i. Yeah. but it was chill. i try my best. im so awkward i say "Cool Yeah" all the timeUHHGH!! and he tells me something about the history of drums and military and then goes "yeah who cares"... HELPPPPP (i do.Pls. PlsPLSPLSPLS.) so anyways. WE. START.. BRUSHES!!! for the first time EVER! and this.. was so.. COOOL. oh my god. i felt like a fancy little brush Gal. wavin them around.. and stuf... well anyways this guy (very UNASSURINGLY) goes "yeah im glad u r interested in this stuff cuz Tbh brushes are many drummers weakness.. including me.. like im not that great sooo im glad i can teach u and get better myself" HELP WAHTTTTTTTTTT. well Thx.. but Wut.
*lyrics translated from Portuguese*
"Sunny day, flower smell
I like the sea, love
Your color, moonlight
Wind that comes from the sea
whirls, spins, twirls the wind
My love will take you
Far beyond the end of the world
Where i will call you"
"Take me in your hands
Take me to a moon in the Clouds
My heart in your hands
My Heart has passed a thousand Door
My life In your hands
Get the Life which gone and Which i lost back to me"
*lyrics translated from Arabic*
*lyrics translated from Portuguese*
BY ELTON MEDRIOS
well brushes were SUPER UPER cool. but oddly like.. its so funny watchiing someone (Nico) use them because its jsut like.. caressing the freaking drum head with a BRUSH LOL LIKE UR PETTING IT!. and he like stares me dead in the eye doing that stupid music concentrating face ITS SO FUNNY and SO AWKWARD. like genuinely brushes is so funy i swaer it feels so intimate LOLLLLLLL. this poor snare head has taken such a beating its whole life being literally slammed and hit every freaking second.. you can give it a little chill break by.... petting it with a brush.... LOLLL AM I MAKING IT WEIRD...ITS JUST SO FUNNY. and you do this thing where you like 'stir' it and the whole thing is you just .. STIR IT. with ur brush. ITS FUNNYI SWEAR. well anyways it was SUPER mega cool. and he was like "u should get ur own brushes Btw. after this u shuld go to guitar center (right nextdoor) so i was like Okie. well im TOTALLY KILLING IT ON THE BRUSHES. he was like Yess Go gurlll (he wasn't) and then im doing some thing idk with them and youll never guess. I MY HANDS START SHAKING AGAIN. oh my god what is wrong with me why am i always shaking during this damn class. maybe because SOMEONE IS LITERALLY ON ME ALL THE FREAKING TIME HOP THE FREAK OFF. like he is so close STARING at me do this LIKE 2 INCHES AWAY oh my god in that tiny freaking room OF COURSE IM GONNA START SHAKING THATS SO MUCH PRESSURE?. and he POINTS IT OUT AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!! "haah ur shaking..." OH MY GOFD HOP OFF. i just laughed. awkwardly this time. why does this happen EVERY WEEK.
"Come, because day has broken
Gardens are blooming
Everything is a presentiment
That this is the longed for time
To be happy"
BY BOBBY TIMMONS TRIO
Literlly. Jesus christ. well brushes was chill and cool and we lowk did that for most of the hour and it was awesome. Sigh. so then... it was Piano time. and heres where it ALL WENT DOWNHILL. IM AC TUALLY KILING MYELF. RN. oh my GODUH. we go. i practiced. a BIT. a bit. probably didn't practice what i was supposed to practice bc i forogt. This. Guy. oh my god. PISSED. OFF. AT ME. JESUS. HOP OFFFFFFF!!!! i know he was probably using scare tactics on me but Jesus. we were doing like idk chords or someting and i always forget scales/chords and i need to think hard abt it to remember cuz idk THERES 60+ DAMN SCALES IN THE DAMN PIANO. and hes like "you know brooke YOU were the one to assk me to play jazz on the piano and if you want to be the difference between a casual player and someone super awesome, which i know you can be, YOU HAVE TO MEMORIZE UR SCALES.. How many times do u practice piano.. probably not as much as the drums, HUH? yeah thats what i thought. well if ur NOT GONNA PUT ANY EFFORT into the FREAKING PIANO at HOME then theres NO POINT and i can just teach you drums the whole hour, do you want that??? YOU have to put the EFFORT IN. try playing a b flat minor arpeggio RIGHT NOW. (*i DO but it takes me a few seconds and i get a note wrong at first ). YEAH EXACTLY. at this point in a song the chord has already passed. you NEED TO KNOW IT or theres no POINT IN THESE LESSONS." OH. MY. GOD. HOP. OFFFFF!!!! JESUS. CHRIST. THREATENING TO STOP TEACHING ME THE PIANO IS SOOOOO CRAZYY!!!!
BY OS MUTRETERIOS GRILADOS
and so i FINALYL spot the brushes when HE WALKS UP TO THEM. and hes like "Oh yeah i came to buy brushes and sticks but Godamn brushes are so expensive (THEY ARE FREAKING $30+?????? GODDAMN. FOR A PAIR OF METAL BRUSHES.) so im just getting sticks"... liek Lit. so he like picks something like 'u should get these' and like ive never seen brushes in my life before this day so im like Okay Yah. and bro goes "sooo.. u have an allowance or something.. these r expensive" i was like Yah i do.. Hah. SO. AWKWARD. im about to spring out of that guitar center right then and there. i take the brushes.. i take them out of there package to see.. and they look... like brushes..(IDK???) so yeah.. he shows me these like fancy bent ones and i was like Wow fancy... and he was like Yah.. these make a diff sound.. Cooollllll... Okay. so i LEAVE. HIGHTAIL. with those brushes. i pay but he follows WATCHING ME LIKE A HAWK AS I PAY IM SO AWKWARD AT THAT DAMN CASH REGISTER. HE HAS A FREAKING STARING PROBLEM OH MY GOD HOP OFF. and i payed $31 for those purple brushes. Thanks. i was so awkward. but i at least wave goodbye. I LEAVE THANK GOD ITS ALL OVER. one more week until next monyay. im going to start tweaking out. genuinely . sigh. so it was quite an unsuccessful monyay. and i think i need to explode. RIGHT NOW. God. DAMN. i guess i need to FREAKING practice my DAMN SCALES. and also the drum stuff i learned isn't transferrable to my crappy electric kit bbecause it too fancy.. like.. buzz.. rolls... and brusshes.. dont rly work on dat.. so i think i will go and KKKMsklFMSKMsm. my life.. is so... hard... AND HOW AM I SUPOSED TO PRACTICE WHEN I GET HOOME AT 7PM EVERY SINGLE FERAIKING NIGHT AND THEN I HAVE TO EAT AND DO MY HOMEWORK AND SHOWER. HOW. HOOOOWWWWWW. Pls. im gonna lose it. So bad. also my like french cousins are coming to my house for three days? and i dont want to be loud for their french ears.
like literally at this point Jusstttt tell me you hate me Brother. and first of all i KNOW my scales. i am just bad at them and i cant do them like the back of my hand. Jesus. thank you for 10+ years of piano lessons for failing me! i need to get out of that mindset and pretend like ive never touched this damn intrument before because thats lowk why i dont practice ( I DO PRACTICE. just not my scales.). UGH. and i know it was a scare tactic to make me practice them but HARSH MUCH>??? like COME ON. maybe ILL turn the tables and threaten to drop out and then he'll have no one to teach jazz stuff to. how do you like THEM APPLES NICO. im kidding. Sigh. im sick of these people. soo... sick.... and the darn class ended. i was like "Ok. COol. Got it. Haha. PLEASE PLEAS EPLEAEPLEASEPLEASE". (not rly). he tells me to buy brushes.. something something.. gives me the damn papers he forgot last week...gives me some badge.. and tells me to have fun at this open mic thing im going to with my BIffle Bae (even though we aren't playing anything). i leave and my dad isn't there to get me yet so i just go to guitar center to get the brushes while i wait and FREAKING. THE OPP. HIMSELF. NICO. COMES IN RIGHT AFTER ME. as if i HAVENT SEEN HIM ENOUGH. like OK HEY. and my dad isn't here to protext me. so we BOTH GO TO THe DAMN DRUM SECTION and i DONT FREAKING KNOW WHERE THESE DAMN BRUSHES ARE because ive only been there ONCE IN MY LIFE to buy STICKS. so i go to sticks... exactly where HE IS... and IDK WHERE these damn brushes are so i look like a stupid idiot looking for these. so awkward. hes like "oh brushes r here" i go to the OPPOSITE END LIKE AN IDIOT. im like Oh Lol ive only been here once( like an IDIOT !!!)
this song is awesome. lovely piano (maybe me when i memeorize my damn scales ok go KYS!). spotify recommended. so fire. so obsessed with these patterns and moves and grooves and OH MAN samba is so fire i actually CANNOT GET ENOUGH OF IT RN!!!! thank you the internet and no one else. Sigh.
the lyrics are impossible to find anywhere? and i dont speak portuguese... but this song is SO FIRE. i feel like partying and dancing. my school is having a rio(the bird movie.. but we can pretend its the city) themed dance and so ive been so obsessed with brazillian dance samba?.. in hope asb will listen to me and play some at the dance. i even sent them a playlist Help.so awesome.
BY QUARTETO JOBIM MORELENBAUM
(a classic, but this version is my absolute favorite!)
*lyrics translated from Portuguese*
"Your love is rain,
my heart the flower
I need your love or I will die
My very life is in your power
Will I wither and fade or bloom to the sky?"
like.. i heard they spoke no english? Help. i dont even know any of them. im not even related to any of them... neither is anyone in my family.. something about my grandpa in law or something. but yeah.. apparently they have a 5 year old french girl sooo that seems like fun.. at my house.... until thursday.... yesssss.... maybe ill play them Cortex... they are french right...? idk. maybe im faking . or Naw. omg. idk how im supposed to live my whole life like this. WEEK then WEEKEND then WEEK then WEEKEND. everything feels the same and everything is blending together all into one and im so sick of it. but its like less than a month until my birthday. i still dont knwo what i will ask for... rhythm heaven megamix.. or project diva on the switch (for $40?? Jesus).... or an acoustic drum kit (but where wouuld i put it? but i want it so bad... i can practice in the garage... then i could play dem fancy stuff)... but then again i want to go camping or something.. but my dad was being weird about it (what so wrong with taking a trip to yosemite during spring break?... or even the giant sequoias... anything to get me INTO A FOREST PLEASEUH. give me a CHANGE this is too stagnant!!!!). well on the bright side i was allowed to drive ALONE for the FIRST TIME on saturday! with my license! im sooo happyyyy!!! i just drove to school for some boring volunteer thing but i DROVE with my LICENSE ALL ALONENENENEN!!!!!! i felt so awesome and cool. THIS MARKS A NEW POINT IN MY LIFE WHERE EVERYTHING IS AWESOME AND IM INDEPENDENT!!!! Pls. Pls. but my dad didn't let me drive alone to my lesson today... prolly cuz it was raining and theres an unprotected left turn (that i NAIL every time Thx Dad). so thats a really good thing. its all good really.
and im trying. SO. HARD. TO KEEP THE MINDSET. it was not bad for a while but now it ssucks cuz im on my period. but NOT. BAAAAAAD! i think. i hope. even though nico was being an opp today i don't really feel so bad. i was just exaggerating :3 but its true that im actually the most awkward person ever. but You live on I suppose. im going to ask to drive to youth groups on wednesday and hopefully it goes well. but youth groups isnt the same anymore.. my one friend smells bad and the other girls are way too christian they make everyone else feel dumb (please. one told me i cant say GOAT cuz its like the devil or something. HOP OFF and CALM DOWN.) so yeah. and im forgetting everyone too. on one hand its a good thing... but i feel really stupid because i dont remember the people i used to know like the back of my hand. i totally forgot someone who used to be really important to me the other day. and it scared me. i dont even rememebr her anymore. JEsus. freaks me out so bad. although i do think i just have the most horrible memory ever (COUGH me not MEMORIZING MY DAMN SCALES NICO.) and sometimes its good but sometimes its so frustrating. it makes me scared that there some really important event in my life that my brain completely forgot. well at leaast im a PROJECT SEKAI GOAT! are girls into that. Lesbians wya. PLEASE. im constnalty looking. but Naw. sigh one day. thank you. well i am going to go PRACTICE MY DAMN SCALES YOU FREAKING SICKO PERV NICO OH MY GOD HOP THE FREAK OFF. thanks everyone and i will catch you next week for another (hopefully less sickening) MONYAY!!!!!!!!!!
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Guys I'm realizing how I am literally a nerd and Idk how to feel...
like what do you MEAN I am on the DEBATE TEAM and taking CALCULUS? am I lame. because I fear. that I might be....
okay wait no I'm a baddie trust
ok I hope that I'm actually really cool and not weird and a loser
irls let me know
-snorin
