Another Week in March 2022
3/12 and 3/13 Weekend
This is me right now trying to be creative and create things. I suppose logically it makes sense. I won't be able to just spit things out on demand. But I guess I am struggling with what I want? I think I ultimately want to be able to save my Multiverse posts. I like the click and drag parts. Its simple. I like the live view of things. I like the gif movements.
But I would also like to share the stuff I make in a digital book form, personal website or some other form. I can't really find anything and it seems like I would have to learn coding and make something. So much work.
I feel like this right now. I burnt my tongue eating soup. I feel very loopy and am not making great decisions. Ugh...
3/14/22 - Monday
Sometimes I wonder how I can pretend to be an adult. I still struggle with basic things such as drinking without spilling on myself, meal planning, driving, etc.
My brain is still not doing so great, have a cat.
3/15/22 - Tuesday
3/16/22 - Wednesday
The anime I can't get out of my head.
3/17/22 - Thursday
3/18/22 - Friday
I want to make another angry/rant zine but I am having an internal block. Self censorship?
Either intense allergies or anxiety. Sometimes choices are awful.
The latest episode of Unwell is hitting me hard in the feels. :(
I haven't had much of an appetite lately. Eating is hard. Which is weird because eating is usually easy for me.
I had such bad anxiety this day. Its telling I didn't even make an entry on the day. I stopped taking allergy meds. Saturday was rough. Sunday is feeling ok.
My First Post
Reposting 18 and 19th stuff
But I feel like this.
But now I'm happy as these gifs are funny and Lilo and Stich always make me smile. Or I like seeing small children suffer?
Its not raining but I want to feel
I was making a sh*tpost page on NeoCities and Hotglue but this seems way easier. Don't mind me, just rounding up everything I already did.
◾ I am feeling lots of feels right now and I am not 100% sure why. I had all sorts of grand plans but now I just slumping on my bed. 😭
◾ I read some articles on NFT environmental cost and now 😱
◾ I was reading personal journals/diaries on Neocities/homemade pages and it really hit me how much even modern personal blogs feel like they're trying to sell me something but these diaries felt like actual diaries. 🤯 Meanwhile this is just my not!Twitter.
◾ My feelings but on Hotglue.me (https://jrs-storytime.hotglue.me/?jan_19_2022/). Sometimes I like to just drag and drop gifs. [I recreated this above quickly, very impressed!).
◾ I wonder if making a Dreamwidth would be more efficient, but I also don't really want to mess with blogging software. Guess I will find out. 🤷🏽
◾ Every year I trick myself that January I won't feel awful. Maybe I should just accept I am not feeling great and await the better seasons where I will go out and do more. Like why am I even stressing about when its slushy and gross out. I'm not going anywhere. 🌨️
◾ Despite this I am feeling really proud of myself right now. I am making going out a bit a regular thing. Nothing crazy, just running more errands and it's not scary anymore (I have agoraphobia and am working on it). It's nice to know I can be relied upon. 😁
◾ One day I will look into if I have autism (anxiety doctor recommended it) but I'm struggling just to see basic doctors on time. 😬
◾ Living with my mom is kind of weird. We used to fight a lot. It's even weirder as it's my house and "I am caring for her" even though she is actually doing pretty well and just doesn't handle living well alone. It's nice I guess. 🤷🏽
JR Signing off for now.