At school rn

Listening to mos thoser !

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I'm so nervous, only three more days until I'm fifteen years old, shit. That's crazy, I'm almost old enough to get a fuckin job. I'm gonna work at dairy queen and buy... you know with my money. I hope they just give me the cash and not put it in my dad's bank acc, that would be baaadd, cuz then I can't buy shit from anybody. Lol

Yesterday my friend was tryna get her first plug, and the motherfucker said it was 100 dollars for half a zip. She doesn't have that money, so we're gonna see if we can get carts since they're better and cheaper. Once we get our hands on one (we'll have to split the costs we are poor as FUCK) we're gonna watch Good Burger (such a fucking good stoner movie hands down one of the best, an absolute classic) and pass it around with our friends.

But maybe I won't? I've been craving some weed since I got caught with it in school. I just wanna melt my fuckin worries away but everyone always tells me that sobriety is great and stuff. But it's not, at least for me it's not great. I get so depressed and anxious all of the time. I'm extroverted but social anxiety holds me back. When I talk to new people I feel like I'm gonna throw up.

Is it weird that when I think about going sober, I just feel sad? I mean, why would it matter if I was sober? If I'm still depressed and sad and still a NEET, why the hell would I be sober? If I have no purpose in life, then fuck it, why not? I don't care about my health at all (If I did I would stop drinking Monsters). I'm gonna die one day anyways. I have one life, why not have fun?

Hmm... I want edibles...