riyam ☽

@riyam

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social media

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concept: taking a break from conventional social media??

thoughts: need to stop overstimulating myself with so much other art (ie IG) and actually follow through on my ideas rather than just making them into lists. I also feel paralyzed by indecision/time management/not having straight deadlines for anything. also nothing really inspiring lately. just sad. need to force myself to be inspired and surrounded by cozy things I guess, less news more <3

also gotta figure out lighting in my apartment so it's cozier too. I love the concept of "hygge". warm lighting is love but I need more lighting maybe more lamps. something I'll keep an eye on....anyway! maybe I really do need to start journaling since this kinda helped :)

art block

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I feel like I'm in a perpetual state of art block and the times where I break through and create something are the rare moments, not the other way around. I know part of why it is this way is the family stress and sometimes I just wish I can say ">:( not my problem!" but even if I do I will be plagued by my guilt and their despair

this is what it's like to live alone but never feel like you have time to yourself. 9-5 work, 5-6 dishes/chores/eating, 7-8h30 sketch and paint and hate the painting you made! and now I think I'm gonna go play Psychonauts 2 since it's practically the only thing that's brought me joy this whole month!

trying not to think about my birthday and how it might suck again because of my family's anger + drama :( I don't want it to rub onto me but it does and I feel like all I do is help, help, help everyone but myself.

anyway, art block. I guess I'll try again soon......btw that Glow Up MUA show on Netflix is super inspiring so I'm hoping part of that gets me out of this art block. I just don't feel cozy lately. Fall's coming and I want to feel cozy both physically and mentally! but today I'm just really >:(

hello internet universe!

~I’m new here~

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my name is Riyam and I just discovered this wonderful website! I am not quite sure what to do with all this creative power yet but I'm loving it

Here's a collage I made recently. Since the start of the pandemic I have been so, so nostalgic for the early days of the internet and have been trying to find outlets for my nostalgia, with art being one of them :-)

A/S/L ?? 27 / f / canada <3