I feel like I'm in a perpetual state of art block and the times where I break through and create something are the rare moments, not the other way around. I know part of why it is this way is the family stress and sometimes I just wish I can say ">:( not my problem!" but even if I do I will be plagued by my guilt and their despair
this is what it's like to live alone but never feel like you have time to yourself. 9-5 work, 5-6 dishes/chores/eating, 7-8h30 sketch and paint and hate the painting you made! and now I think I'm gonna go play Psychonauts 2 since it's practically the only thing that's brought me joy this whole month!
trying not to think about my birthday and how it might suck again because of my family's anger + drama :( I don't want it to rub onto me but it does and I feel like all I do is help, help, help everyone but myself.
anyway, art block. I guess I'll try again soon......btw that Glow Up MUA show on Netflix is super inspiring so I'm hoping part of that gets me out of this art block. I just don't feel cozy lately. Fall's coming and I want to feel cozy both physically and mentally! but today I'm just really >:(