Hm. Finding myself back in the studies which compell. Exploring a belief system, or aspects of this system which may hold some value. The concepts that register with me, that make me really consider... maybe dedicating myself to experiencing, to observing these thoughts and notions that resonate. That actually do inspire a feeling that can be guiding in the midst of things that are so... unguided, unweighted by existence.
It's worth taking seriously. It really is. I have to wonder. I have to wonder and think, and sit with the thoughts that come up.
If nothing else, returning to the practice of being more observant, of listening to the way that I feel, that I think, that come up in my very being. That has to be worthwhile. That has to be start.
I'll never find it boring how I get drawn back, even after a while of feeling astray. Or feeling like it could not fit. And I see ways that maybe it could. Maybe I should try it.
Something about things being an ongoing process.