> PANIC TIME
while i personally wouldn't be too terribly bummed out if it all falls apart (i have recently been getting back into medieval reenactment and have been looking at nearby farm internships again), there are two things that worry me about it: a) it would be embarrassing as hell, especially since my mom has been telling literally everyone she knows since january, and if i'm not super upset, she'll think i didn't put the effort in. b) i'm not sure how it would affect my college deferment. i've already been accepted and my deferment accepted, and i don't think they'd make me start attending in the second semester as a freshman, but i'm pretty sure one of the big reasons i was even accepted was because of my taking part in this exchange program, and because i was so clear on what i would be doing in the extra year.
the host family can't help me much, since this isn't their field of expertise, but they've been super nice. and the online culture class i'm supposed to do before i arrive has also been a lot of fun so far. i'm looking forward to going, but at this point i think i'd be fine either way.
it was supposed to all work out, but i don't think it will. i'm supposed to be leaving in a little over two weeks for my exchange program, but i don't even have all the documents i need yet. the letter of sponsorship i need from the host club has still not arrived and the health certificate i sent to the embassy hasn't been returned, despite me sending it over 3 weeks ago. i also can't get a flight ticket until i get my visa, which is not helping my nerves.
> CURRENT INTERESTS
BOOKS: rodrigo of caledon*, iwtv, dune, captive prince
GAMES: ffxiv, fear & hunger; MISC: the roman republic,
ai no kusabi; SHOWS: legend of the galactic heroes;
medieval reenactment, troilus, early christian
theological debates
* i literally cannot recommend this book series enough. its only two books long (the still and the king), but david feintuch is insane. main character is a bit of a fool but his character growth is the most realistic i've ever seen, and all the characters are so interesting. if you like medieval light fantasy, or even if you don't, i am begging you: please read it