wonder

i wonder when the holes in my walls began to grow eyes

i look to the moon and i wonder

i wonder when the world began being aware of all of my sins

i wonder when the last time i felt a true emotion was

i wonder when i'll find my home in the arms of someone warm

i wonder if i'll live to see 26

i wonder why i was built with so many inherent flaws

i wonder why i was allowed to be hurt like i was

and then i go to sleep.