SOTD
i decided to format my entry differently! the old way was really time consuming and never saved for a lot of space to be honest.. i wanted to type out my thoughts chunk by chunk, like photos and papers pinned to a corkboard. or as something like that - like, a lot of blobs.
it would also give me more space to write , i suppose . but enough with that ! i'll actually talk now , haha
this week was okay . i got some new songs on my spotify liked which is good . i take pride in my music taste . i just had to deal with some 504 drama with my math teacher . . but , happy developmental disability awareness month ! ! i am planning on writing something to raise awareness , represent & uplift people with those disabilities , and educate people as well .
i've just been really stressed this week . i hope the next one is better . i was bodyshamed sorta yesterday or a few days ago . . some girl told me to " go me to go play a sport " in a mean way . she knows im insecure about my body and she is as well , but i don't see why that gives her the right to say that . it wasn't meant as a joke - i understood it as a raw insult . it caused me to think , " she doesn't think i'm that clueless because i'm autistic , right ? "
i thought about her friend group too . my cousin is in it . i just hang around her friend group because i don't have any friends . do they take advantage of the fact i have autism and can't understand certain things , and use that as a way to get away with saying mean things to me ?
it makes me so sad :(
why don't people like me ? i've done nothing wrong . i try and mirror them so they like me because i act just like them .
