I feel lost again. I guess whatever goes up must go down eventually. I'm tired of these constant dips in my mood. I'm having a difficult time drawing as well and am struggling creatively. I miss spending time with my best friend. We've both been so busy dealing with shit in our lives to hang out much. AltHough, it seems that we will be able to hang out soon in time for her birthday.
I know that I should seek help,; knowing the amount of mental stress I put myself through. I keep having certain... thoughts. Scary thoughts that push me over the edge. I practically lock myself in my room. I'm trying to keep my mind as well as my thoughts positive. But I get so wrapped up in the negative, it makes it that much harder to keep a smile on my face. Hopefully I can break through this hurdle; while trusting in my family and friends.
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