im so glad to be back on monyays....
song of da week
BY KRAFTWERK
YAY FINALLY! Omg ive missed monyay multiverse posts so much NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ive been ITCHING... (to overshare on the internet)!!!! everything is finally normal now. exxcept now that its not... because today was so weird and i totally got karma.. for being the person that i am... Sigh. like do i deserve everything horrible that has happened? Yes. but am i still sad about it? Yes. Sigh. anyways. wheere does one start?! after SOOO LONG.... NO MONYAY SINCE MARCH!!!??? oh man. its hoirrble. PEACE IS RESTORED IN THIS WORLD! Thank god. i actually checked multiverse like every other day... in hope.. and I WAS RIGHT! anyways. my day. i got karma for being horrible today. and i lost my favorite chapstick. and on my THIRD day of driving myself to shcool (because im FINALLY allowed to drive myself now) i..... got in a fender bender.... SO EMBARASSING BRO THERES NO WAY. it was really minor... i barely scratched this guy.. and it was because i was STUPIDLYY STUPIDLY distracted by someone walking on the sidewalk like a FREAKING GODDAMN IDIOT. and i accidentally hit some guy (that was going very fast in my defnse) while taking a stupid left turn. the guy was nice... but i still had to give him my number. GOD IM SO STUPID AND DUMB THERES NO WAY.
BY CHILDISH GAMBINO
BY THE GO! TEAM
"Neon lights
Shimmering neon lights
And at the fall of night
This city's made of lights"
like im actually just simply so embarassed and angry at myself for letting myself get distracted and just.. letting that happen. and i WANT to be mad at the world but i KNOW i deserve IT ALL. I HATE ITALLLL!!! im not untouchable. IM NOT UNTOUCHABLE!!! sigh. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON. anyways. everything else was fine today... idk... i love my friends.... and stuff. yeah.. anyways. my Monyay activities. my CLASSSS!!! youd think that since early march that i wouldve actually gotten good... at drums.. and jazz piano... but no... i still suck really bad.. i think i feel improvement! especially in drums!!! but piano has really thrown me for a loop.. and THE JAZZ BAND AUDITION IS DUE ON JUNE 9!!!! THATS SO SOON!!! TOO SOON FOR ME TO GET GOOD BY THEN... (I CANNOT DO THAT). Hell naw. piano is jsut so tough.... WHY the FREAK do i have to understand WHY im playing all these notes and why cant i JUST PLAY THE NOTES. its so so SO hard to wrap my head around.. like in the song im practicing for my audition theres a D+7 chord. and i was like Da frick is a D+7?? and freaking nico is like.. "oh a D+7 is ACTUALLY just a Ab major 7 chord... but with D as a base" OK THEN WHY THE HELL IS IT WRITTEN AS A D+7 THEN??? WHY NOT JUST WRITE Ab MAJ 7/D!!!!???? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU LEE MORGAN??? "blah blah something about perfect triads (or something i forgot) is why!!" ITS SO CONFUSING. WHY CANT I JUST PLAY THE NOTES WHYYYY.!?!?!? its dirving me crazy. there is no other time where i feel MORE stupid than when im in that room with nico and im trying to understand all this jazz theory CRap.
amazing songz
"I don't really like shades, big rims, or jewelry
But gettin' time of day from a model is new to me
Bein' me isn't as hard as it used to be
Now everyone sing the chorus, man, you do it so beautifully"
like genuinely. i ACTUALLY feel stupid... and Tbh ive never felt like that b4... like Truly helplessly not knowing something... like i kNOW he views me as this stupid person who just cant understand... i just dont know HOW to understand. its so fruterating. not to mention i work horribly under pressure.. and i do things well when im at home practicing alone but when he is in the room during a class i get really nervous that ill mess everything up and then i DO mess everything up. soo.... i just dont know how to let go of myself i Suppoese. i dunno... ill just keep trying because i really really really want this... just sounds so awesome. i also feel like im really improving in drums!! like to the point whhere all the stuff im doing is beyond my crappy aleisis electric kit (Please i want an acoustic kit SO BAD)... and brushes.. and stuff,... its really fun!! but not to put all my eggs in one basket, but my only chance to get into jazz band is with piano... percussion is basically impossible and their drummers are already insanely good and im... not... and they also dont have a piano player AT ALL.. so basically my only shot is through piano.. which sucks.. but also.. IDK!! im trying. a lot! but i CAN ALWAYS DO MORE.
"Take it the goal goal
Push it to the limit
We are the movers and we don’t do "stop" (Say what?)"
"The mirror ball's throwing mold
You can't get a grip if there's nothing to hold
See the flash catch a white lily laugh and wilt
But if you must smash a glass first fill it to the hilt"
IDK. i dont want to be so negative but ive been really disappointing myself as of late i need to CARE MORE!!!!!! ABOUT MORE!!! BE MORE AND DO MORE!!! but also... i think thats just my horrible haircut speaking and once it grows out it will all be ok. anyways. i really REALY want jazz band... like nothing more in my whole life have i wanted jazz band. anyways.... today during my class nico was all likke "oh ya i was looking up about the kendrick vs drake stuff... who are you team?" LOLLLLLLLLLL... i told him im doing a project on that for school for my class and he laughed... and im team kendrick.. Obvi.. (tbh i still am pretty lost on the whole thing but im trying to stay Hip with it) but that was funny.. and then at the end of the class he GAVE ME HIS NUMBER LMAOOOOOOOOOOO....he was like "oh yeah.. i know emails kinda weird... so ill just give you my number.. if you have any questions...." LOLOOLLLL NUMBER COPPEDDD LITERALLY COPPED. so yeah hes basically in love with me.... (Ew... EWEWEWEWW). that was so funny. so now i have his number LMAO. so yeah.. it was a decent class for a crappy monyay.. and i didn't crash into anything on the way there so that was a plus. (Ugh.) idk ill power on... WAIT GUSY. CAN YOU BELIEVE ITS ONLY TWO (2) MONYAYS UNTIL SHCOOL IS OVER??!?!? OH MY GOD YES YESS!!! IM SO EXCITED!! for it to be OVER and to BEGIN SENIOR YEAR!! GOD BLESS AMERICA! im so ready.. summers gonna be so awesome!!!!
BY MGMT
yay jazz song of da week!!
BY LEE MORGAN
IM A SUCCKERRR FOR BOSSA NOVA ILL BE THE FIRST ONE TO SAY IT!!! god. GOD I LOVE BOSSA NOVAAA.. this song is fire... its part of my jazz audition... lik,e oh man its Fire. i love love love the piano in it and i think the melody is super aweomse... shoutout mr simon... for the PMO.
like now that i can actually drive!!! and im allowed to!!! its like.. IT FOR ME!!!! YAYAYAYAY!!!! although, summer makes me nervous, because i hate hate hate being alone because me alone is like.. the worst part of me.. and i get weird and sad and just nothign is good. and last summer i was in a relationship so it was all ok and i was distracted mostly but the summer before that... like i dont... want that... again... and im nervous for this summer.. but i have awesome friends and things to do and internships and stuff... so !! i hope HOPE it will all be ok!! and i will read and practice instruments and all that... Sigh i wish i had an acoustic drum kit though. but i mean, im not pursuing any of this. so yeah. i am pretty excited for school to be over... one step closer to graduation, which, on one hand im looking forward to, independence and college and crap.. but also. the future is scary, and after senior year,,, ill never ever be a kid again! EVER!! and so.. i suppose i must make this year ReALLLYY count!!! SUPER MEGA!! enjoy it a lot!! pleasss!!! anyways... ii think things are going good right now!! besides todays mishaps and regrets... its smooth sailing from here. especially in terms of school... and stuff.. friends.. relationships... life.. and yeah. just need to get off the phone (curse you instagram reels!!!!!!) and be A KID!!!!!!! oh man i really missed multiverse... i wonder why/how it went back up.. i thought the owners forgot about it Tbh!! im so happy its back though... i have a horrible oversharing problem and im not as cool and mysterious as i would hope i am.. and multiverse helps me.. because i can overshare and be NOT myserious here.. and then be the cool NON-oversharer and mysterious person IRL!!! i guess i couldve gone on tumblr or something else but also i LOVE the creative aspect of multiverse.... its like mini graphic design blogs!!! idk i love it. and i TRIED neocities. im like never coding ever.
ohhh i was home alone this past weekend because my whole family went to my sisters grad in iowa but i had an exam so i stayed home.. and it was a fun good experience! i cooked and cleaned and took care of the cats and stuff and i liked it a lot... it was pretty crazy.. .and also i met a raccoon!! one night i went out at like 10pm (yeah dangerous i know but whatever im still alive) into my neighborhood.. and i kinda live on the point of a hill so theres this peak of the hill where everyone goes for sunsets and you can kinda just look down on the valley i live in ... and i went there (because i had to do at least ONE rebellious thing while my parents were away) and it was like... actually insane. going out at night like is so nice.... the crickets were so loud and i could hear like everything....... and all the bugs.. one of the bugs sounded like marbles bouncing together??? and there was a frog croaking?? and a dog barking in the distance,, LOL it was liek a perfect little fairytale scene or something... and i was just like.. looking out!! on the valley!! and the moon was right there. and im like. Oh man this is waht i want to do for a living (be in the world..... nature.. crap...). Perspectives..... and crap.. or seomthing... idk.... im not really deep liek that. but it was really good. and i think everyone should go on a night walk through their neighborhood.. and make friends with a raccoon and sit in trees (i have a favorite tree to sit in right next to the school next to my house... its so comfortable to just chill in.. so i also went there that night). anyways!!! HAPPY FIRST MONYAY SINCE MARCH!!! IM SO HAPPY MONYAYS ARE FINALLY BACK FINNALLY PEACE IS RESTORED AND EVERYTHING IS NORMAL AGAIN!!!!!!!! YIIPPPEEEE!!! STAY TUNED FOR ANOTHER MONYAY NEXT WEEK!! (assuming the site doesn't go down again) YAY!! love all the monyayers out there... even though everyone ever thinks this site is still dead probably. Rip. goodnight!
