yay.... last school monyay!
epic song of the week:
BY FALCO
BY BLUR
BY VIOLENT FEMMES
BY JOE STRUMMER
BY OF MONTREAL
"Don't turn around, wa-uh-oh
(yeah-yeah)Der Kommissar's in town, wa-uh-oh
You're in his eye and you'll know why
The more you live, the faster you will die"
[lyrics translated from german]
helloooooo!!!!!! Bros this site is dead... after it died everyone forgot... pls start posting again.... PLEAK! yeyy... well anyways it monyay!! and the last monyay of school because next monyay is memorial day... YAY!!! JUNIOR YEAR IS ALMOST OVER! fianlllyy... im kind of excited to get out of here... college awesomeness YES! welp! monyay review! i made a candy salad in apes today.. and ate takis.. and tehn had pizza in broadcast.. so it was kind of Littttt..... bros ok i had my class with [REDACTED]dontsurf (hop off) and UGHHHHHHHHHHH bros i suck so bad at PIANO i know i say this every time but i suck!! anyways so i go in and hes liek do u wanna start w piano or drum and i was like PIANO.. and he was like Woah... u usually say u dont care. (IM SCREWED FOR THIS PIANO JAZZ BAND AUDITION ACTUALLY! THATS WHY. id MUCH RATHER BE PLAYING DRUMS) BRo. and we start with FREAKING blue 7 sonny HOElins. stupid IMPROV COMPING whatecer i hate it so much i dont know why i have such a mental block Gurl. idk... guys i sweaer Jazz piano is harder than all the other instruments in terms of jazz because every other instrument (more or less-ish) u can only play one note at a time but for piano you play a BUNCH and have SO MUCH MORE FREEDOM AND IT SUCKS SO HARD WHO CAME UP WITH THIS CRAP
Fire Songs
"Well, you can all just kiss off into the air
Behind my back, I can see them stare
They'll hurt me bad, but I won't mind
They'll hurt me bad, they do it all the time"
"Girls who want boys
Who like boys to be girls
Who do boys like they're girls
Who do girls like they're boys
Always should be someone you really love"
like i dunno learning curve crap. sigh... i try my best but i embarass myself as Always!!!! and im just soSOSOOOO awkward girl. sigh just be NORMAL GIRL. and he kept grabbin at my Damn phone to play the song... Just Freaking USE UR OWN DAMN PHONE (that he does NOT have a case on and its ALL CRACKED. da frick). and i had to go on spotify to open blue 7 and he saw i was listening to der kommissar.... and didn't comment. I TOOK THAT SONG FROM HIMMMMMUHHH (its a rly popular song..ig) and i searched.. and im scared he saw what i was searching for (it was literlally nothing interesting... or embarassing). Ugh. frekaing Ho. at least i did Fine on Ceora..... i feel so screwed for this audition though Bros. BUT i mean honestly i dont think theres many jazz pianists at my school... so i have a pretty good chance.. and they are in need of a pianist and Stuff... so even if i suck i think ill get in... but still its embarassing you know? so scary.. freaky.... and a guy that used to have a crush on me is in jazz band so i cant be bad in front of him because thats embarassing.. like... Brah. Only two more monyays until the Audition. HahahAHHDBAHDBHASAHAHA (IM SCREWED ITS OVER FOR ME). think positive Hah... Yis. so... positive. next year will be so awesome! i can feel it!!! im ready!! and ill practice all the time and be really good at everything!!! omg... BRODONTSURF freaking posted playing united states of whatever on the IG. freak.
like idk i think im the most awkward Gal ever. but like embrace it... awkward... is.. cool... (its not) (sigh). YEAH WHATEVA!!!! (liam lynch reference. Heh.) aywayss... i had a project for apes where i had to make like a diy sustainable thing so my Biffle Bae came over and we made cat scratchers together and it was Awesome and my cat scratcher is really Cute.... and anyway sometimes i feel like sometimes im keepin my Biffle bae a secret like... no one knows how cool and awesome she is... NO ONE KNOWS...too underground... she too mysterious and hip.... and lokwey we are so the same (aries twins) but also so different its acttuually crazy. i am NOT mysterious... no matter how much i try. but it like works. shoutout to da biffle bae ur actually the realest 1. also shoutout for reminding me to STAY POSITIVE. just in language in general towards myself its so easy to be so negative on urself... but no... every minor inconvenience does NOT make me want to KMS. #StayPositive. and its probably a good mental thing... if you say this stuff enough (good or bad) you start believing it... and stuff.. so... i need to be nicer to myself toO!!!!!!! Yay. Thanls. also. i was going through my old tweets on my priv twitter account thats just basically a diary and Dude i am SO glad i am not in the past anymore. like oh mman. im so glad im in THIS moment living this life right NOW because i was FREAKED UP back then dude. not like weird but i was so sad and in a genuienly horrible relationship in hindsight and im so glad its over
like oh man. that stuff was NOT NORMAL. like coming to terms with some of that crap i dealt with is like something i need to rememeber... bro i posted such sad stufff!! and i know i said in my last post that last summer wasnt bad because i was distracted in a relationship but i lied actually last summer sucked so bad and i was horribly depressed and mean to everyone!! and i did things i regret!! (but also i try to have no regrets. so NO REGERTS (but also yes, regerts.. but its a learning experience!)) and also my cat died LOL. RIP SULTAN. i just need to finally have a normal summer where im not superuper sad DUDE! this is the summer. THIS IS THE ONE! dude like sometimes i need to remind myself to look back and remind myself of how i got here in the first plcae because i forget EVERYTHING bad so easily,, its good but also sucks! like Yes live in the moment but remember how i got here, too!! and im glad im in this current position in life and i hope summer doesnt messs it all up and i stay Chillin. YAY! happy almost summer time! im excited.. actually.. as long as i stay busy and im not alone too much, itll be good.. but actually dude my sister (the one with a girlfriend) is staying in her college town over summer because idk... she doesnt like my parents. or wants freedom. and sometimes it feels like she abandoned me as soon as she went to college yk? like....the other day she was complaining about being with my parents alone for a trip, but i do that every day. and i understand i guess. but i feel like she forgot about me and went off to live her life, doesnt even want to come back for me. ill probably never live with her again or have what we used to have ever again. and every time anyone asks whos my best friend i always say her, but maybe im just being selfish by feeling like she abandoned me.
I LOVEW that song. HOOOEEEE HOP OFF. WHATEVA! bro. anywyas... speaking of men i Hate. i have a FREAKING GROUP PROEJCT *sobs* in FREAKING HISTORY (my least favorite class bc i know no one) and it sucks so bad... and my one friend in there... Shoutout Robert.. invited me to his group. of FREAKS. Bros i HATE talking to boys i feel like im tweakin out every time i have to talk to one.. like how you even treat them.. .Ew... cooties... or seomething... (im scared of boys probably because i only grew up with girls in my family other than my dad. thats probably why im a lesbian..). anyways these guys aare FREAKKYY and of COURSE we are doing a mash up presentation based on an essay we all wrote individually before and OFC I CHOSE TO WRITE MY ESSAY ON GAY PEOPLE like an IDIOT so now i have to present about gay people in this group of freaks who probably think gay people are FREAKS. and i am just sitting there... awkwardly.. trying to be normal.... shoutout Robert but why would you subject this on me. (hes the only normal one... except i dont understand half the words he says... i am not hip enough for this LIFE UHFDHGD). and then the group next to me was talking about planning a Hip Lit Func(tion) at an airbnb.. like i am not supposed to be here get me out of that DAMN HISTORY CLASS PLEASE I HATE IT THERE. WHY AM I THERE.
"I don't know what love is
Is there something else giving me the chills?
But if my hands are the color of blood
Then, baby, I can tell ya
Sure, I can tell ya
Love kills"
but i dont know. even last summer she did live at home, but even then it wasnt. normal. she went out every day was essentially NEVER EVER home, but when she was, she locked herself in her room and blasted music loudly or got high secretly (and denied it when i asked about our bathroom smelling like weed). i just remember feeling so frustrated with her. and yes we have our moments but idk i just feel like itll never be the same as it was. and her choosing not to come home this summer was like the final blow on it. i miss her and i just feel abandoned here at home while she goes off and lives her amazing life without me. sometimes it feels like she doesnt really think about the things she does, she just goes with the flow, i guess. doesnt really always consider everything.. shes just.. surface level on a lot of stuff.. i guess is the best way to describe it, which is kinda mean. i dunno. im probably being selfish and maybe a little jealous im stuck here. but it really sucks and i feel alone. i mean, i have my other sister, who i LOVE so much, and shes home for the summer, but she spends all her time with my mom and i dont always know how to talk to her like that. im glad shes here though, ive never felt abandoned by her,,, shes my rock, maybe. idk it all kinda sucks on that front, but im glad i have really good friends to depend on and stuff, they are awesome. thats the saddest thing about going to college, def... leaving my friends. i hope we stay friends. anyways Sorry got too sad there anyways happy monyay thanks monyayers for monyaying this monyay!!!! YYAYYY! SEE YOU NEXT TIME!
"Rock n' roll is dead
Music hurts the head, that’s why it’s cool
Strum a realistic song to hear Hunter say:
"So much hate for anyone we used to date”
goodnight! :P