HAI MULTIVERSERSS happy monyayyy!! keepin this going over summer :3 currently listening to britpop because yesterday i fell down the raabit hole of First music videos.... then live concert vids.. then vids of Blur... (the girls & boys music video is Fire) and then the rabbit hole of the awesomeness of damon albarn... gorillaz and blur? thats so awesome possum. anyways yey! its monyay! and this marks like 5 days until my jazz band audition is due and i am absolutely terrified and screwed... but i have nothing to do this week except practice and maybe im getting the hang of it!! i think... ill be OKAY. for piano. im just not gonna turn in the drum one i think. Sorry Nico. Sorry. dude he goes so over on the classes literally he went an HOUR OVER BRO. da frick. hes going to alaska or something for the next two weeks so literally when he was already 40 mins over he was like.... oh i guess ill just go 2 hours today and then u wont have a sub or class next week. Sigh. so no monyay next week (ill still post.) and we did lots.. of drum and piano.. SO MUCH. i like exploded ive never had to think this hard in my life.
BY ALL
BY SCREECHING WEASEL
BY BLUR
BY BLACK FLAG
"The world's on heroin
Everybody is standing in my way
I try to use my brain
Stupidity is thrown in my face"
"There's a real cool club on the other side of town
Where the real cool kids go to sit around and talk bad
About the other kids
Yeah, it's a real cool club and you're not part of it"
i literlallly have no words for it. im exited for this audition to be over and then my lfie will begin for REALLL! literally... just constantly workin hard. (hardly workin. i barely practiced). but i think i understand everything. it just needs practice. an d stuff. and i atually swore off social media this week!!!!!!!! so NO DISTRACtIONS!!!! me and some of my friends are doing it cuz idk church told them or something and now im copying them. no insta or T-t-t-twitter... or facebook (i broke it a bit. i didnt know facebook counted!!). and its hard i want to literally overshare on my insta close friends BUT I CANTTT!! but at least i can here. this doesn't count as social media... right. no one will know. Hehe. LOL anyways nico wrote "lock in!!" in a freaking email after class and i thought it was funny... so hip cool kid i guess. im so awkward. he was asking me questions bcecause we were taking a break or something and i told him about my sisters and.. that im going to an open mic this friday (not performing Lol) and that i need to buy a screwdriver this week. and hes going to alaska (is scared hes going to get eaten by a bear???) and has a sister 4 years older in nursing school but she hates school (then why go into nursing school??? what...) (i already knew he had a sister. sigh). and then he said something about the lead sheet being fucked up and i thought it was funny, it always surprises me when like.. adults (although hes like a kid. but still a teacher) curses. i grew up wayyy sheltered. *SHUDDER*. but everything is CHANGING!! and Independence. i can do WATEVER I WANNA!!! and its so aweomse!!! im so sad i have no monyay next week!!!!
i waas probably gonna get isaac as my sub and that wouldve been AWESOME because i love isaac hesssooo COOLLL dude and i lvove stalking his spotify cuz he has good stufPleaf on there!111 ill get him next NEXT monyay.... BRAH. k isaac... PLEAK!!! i wish i was a cool hip long haired indie boy who is really good at jazz and drums and guitar and bass and piano and everything ever. ugh i HATE THEM ALL. ok does anyone else get this way but i like it when people talk about me or somehthing about me when im right there and i could say it myself. like.eeee.... i was just out with my friend and she was liek talking to other people and was like "oh omg brooke had this crazy thing happen to her and her friends ... blah blah blah" LIKE THIS STORY I COULD TOTALLY SAY MYSELF BUT SHES TELLING IT FOR ME TO THE PEOPLE WHEN IM RIGHT THERE!!! i actually love it when people do that because like Omg you were listening to me when i told you that random thing that happened?? ANd u want to tell other peoplee for me ?? :3 that happened witwh nico today idk the owner came in and asked why we were going so song and he was like "oh ya she has an audition blah blah" or something and that made sense but like idk was like Omg!!. maybe i just feel so woman when i hear people use pronouns for me ever I gues.s. like Hahah Girly hooo you were listneing to me taaljkkkK!!!!! i liek feel like a super spy sometimes because i ltierally dont care abt pronouns or gender or crap like it doesnt matter and technically i use any pronouns but i stopped telling people that because.. too much effort and no one gaf anyways
"When I feel heavy metal
(Woo-hoo) And I'm pins and I'm needles
(Woo-hoo) Well, I lie and I'm easy
All of the time but I'm never sure why I need you
Pleased to meet you"
"I wouldn't be without my TV for a day Or even a minute
Don't even bother to use my brain any more
There's nothing left in it
We've got nothing better to do
Than watch TV and have a couple of brews"
BY DESCENDENTS
and either way like i look girl call myslef girl and thats what everyone calls me thsese days so i guess thats what i be but secretly... secretly in my head i know what i am (i dgaf about it. thats what i am. (jk the word for it is gender apathetic but literally who cares. not me LOLOL)). anyways maybe thats why it surprises me when people talk about me with pronouns to me..... maybe just dont percieve me.!!! and i know usisng like.. diff pronouns but not telling anyone defeeats the whole purpose... but like idk. i just like knowing it myself. and then in the tiny rare ocassion soemone calls me something different its alwasy like Nice. i used to tell people but now i just avoid the question. like when we share prnouns in groups and stuff LITERALLY i just dont say them... idk. STAY MYSTERIOUS! (too mysterious. thats not something ur suposed to be mysterious about..). anywyas... i still like it when peopel talk for me when im right there. like thanks for listening to what i told you about myself!!! like Yey!! im happy its summer. this is my awesome girlboy summer (HAH). im liking the life without social media. even youtube vids are better than the endless instagram reels. this is the start of a neewww meeee and my hair is growing out and i can drive anywhere i wannntt! speaking of driving, the other day i was out at my friends house for my friends birthday and i was out for a long time (she lives like 5 mins away from me) and it was like 10:30 and i was like... i dont have a curfew... my paresnts are probably worrided about me! and i texted my mom and i was liek we should probs establish and curfew (cuz i dont want my parents worried. i know they get pretty worried. and now i can drive and dictate that stuff!!). and my friends were Freakkked
like Why tf would u ask ur parents for a curfew. and maybe it was stupid LOL but i hate worrying them. anyways they made it like 11... and they are RLLLYYY chill and its nice how chill they are (they let me drive 45 mins away to pick something up at a mall alone!!!!! it was so scary and i was shaking by the end. and then i looked up a youtube video on how to do a left turn. and now i feel a lot better about driving!!! living and learning!!!) . so the least i can give them back is not worrying them. so yeah... im gonna try to make a like... daily agenda to keep me on track each day because i can get distracted so easy and i need to get out of the house or else ILL GO CRAZY AND INSANE. haha. HAH. i should go to the park one day. to play rhyhm heaven (thats what i did oneyear and it was rly fun!). and so i made my list for tomorrow.... i hope i stay on top. june is a pretty bare bones month for me, everything starts picking up in july so yeah. just gotta get throguh this month. i hung out with a friend yesterday at my hosue that i usualy dont hang out with. we played rhythm heaven and zelda and it was fun... and i lieked hearing their crazy stories and stuff. its nice getting a diff perspective, but also, this person has gone through crazy shit in and out of psych hospitals and sometimes i just dont know how to respond. Oh man! it was cool we hung out tho. random! but still cool! they get me. i like the people that Get Me.
"Well bring it up and never touch the ground
And when you need me i'll be around
This is how it's gonna be if you don't get sick of me"
Yeah obviously!!!! :P... i feel like my life has slowed down so much... its a little too nice and smooth. ITS TOOOOOOO NICE AND SMOOTH. everythign is different now!!!! if i knew id be here a year ago... idk how id feel!!! happy..... sad......... idk. i miss my sisters though. I MISS THEM SO MUCH. being an only child freaking SUCKS! thats why i love my friends sosososo much because i dont have those rocks in my life anymore. being the youngest sucks so bad. but independeennnncccceeeeeee!!!!!!!!! all the seniors graduated and i thik its crazy ill never see those people evver again in my life. like theyre gone.wow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thatll be me in a year. i think its crazy we cant tell the future. ill never know where ill be in a year... until im THERE! ill know what college im giong to... probably everything eeverr!! hopefulyl my hair is longre!!! LOL.. HEHE. anyways... i think thats all for today.. kinda a boring monyay,, sorry.. but please wish me luck on my jazz band audition!! (IM GOING TO NEED IT.) see ya next monyay :PPPP
