BY OF MONTREAL
BY TELE NOVELLA
BY DARK THOUGHTS
Haliillooo internet its me again. bros... i miss this site... barely anyone posts on here anymore its so sad.... i also feel guilty taking up lke the entirety of the home page but i also literally only post once a week.. Sigh. anyways YAY we made it through another week and we made it through another monyay!! barely... my whole family is home now... both of my sisters are here at my house and now everytihing feels so family..ish..! anyways Freakdontsurf is back from his Vacay to alaska... Erm.... ya cuz he kept posting pics of him shirtless on some iceburg downing buzzballs HELP ME WHATS WRONG WITH HIM. ALL HE POSTS ABOUT IS BUZZBALLS NO JOKE. but he was back and i was kinda alright today.... So many 5 stroke rolls... SO MANY... and the Damn drum head was way to high for me so i was focusing so hard on not hitting the rim and not on the 5 stroke rolls and i was kkinda bad but tis Waatever. he asked me what i got up to in the past 2 weeks and idk why i didnt say something cool like "oh i went to 2 concerts!" "oh i watched inside out 2!" "oh i babysat!" but Nope i said "oh i just played games all day..." and he asked me and i said WIZARD101 LIKE A FREAK. he was like LOL thats so old.. you like that?? Help me. and then he asked me to freaking sing this thelonious monk song and i couldnt (cuz i didnt know the song well enough to remember) and i was so awkward and he was literally laughing at me and it was so emabrassing
"When things are too nice for too long
I lose myself, I lose my what's good
Want to lash out, want to blow things up again
I want to blow them up now
I want to blow them up again"
HEPLLPPP. so Yeah. something about transposing horn solos. Sooo guess whose listening to Striaght No Chaser and Nows the Time this week!!!!!!! ME. UGH. and then when we were changing rooms the like owner of the studio was like Zamn Nico i love your outfit you are lookin awesome (he was kinda dressed up in a colared shirt and belt and crap) and he whispered "i think my boss has a crush on me" so that was funny Ha Ha FREAKO. and then Idk piano was whatever just went over whatever isaac said last week of ii v i progressions and something.... common tones... he asked me if i knew the common tones of a line and i was like "dude......" and he waslike dude??? like BRO i literally told you like 3 seconds ago that when isaac explained it to me that i had no idea WHAT HE WAS EVEN TLAKING ABOUT. but i felt bad for calling him dude. but the dude ltierally Curses in front of me so its not like this is an uber professional Freaking thing BRAH. also he DMED ME ON INSTAGRAM WITHOUT FOLLOWING ME BACK FREAK ASS HOE (he was sending me a song). literally just text me. EMAIL ME. WH ARE YOU DMING ME ON INSTAGRAM WEIRDO. liike Thanks IG. and THEN on my way home i spot him in his stupid gray honda cr-v a couple lanes away from me and GUESS WHAT HE IS DOING. HE IS FREAKING ON HIS PHONE WHILE DRIVING. PHONE IN ONE HAND STEERING WHEEL IN THE OTHER FULLY DRIVING WHILE ON HIS PHONE. WHAT A FREAAAKKKK OMG. i was so Pissed. not really i was Jamming to Plateau Phase/No Careerism No Corruption by of Montreal ("Fricked in ur driveway... in ur drivewayy...") at that moment. NEVER TRUST A MAN THAT DRIVES A HONDA CR-V THAT IS LITERALLY A WHOLE ASS SUV!!! anyways that was the end... Please Brooke for the love of GOD practice this week... PLEASE!! all i do all day is eat hot chip play wizard 101 and rhythm heaven and go on ao3. i live a hard life. well anyways im ballin actually...
"The heart it seeks a story like the eye looks for a face
Her lovely style, her crooked smile
Thеy once have filled this placе
What went away? What could I say?
All she ever loved is right here
In all the world, one little pearl
For the oyster's autobiography"
"There's a sound only the kids can hear
Every time that they walk down the street
And I know they don't want us around
It's all ringing in my ears
Can you hear it ringing in my ears"
i had a pretty solid week. EXAMPLE A I WENT TO THEEEE OF MONTREAL CONCERT ON FRIDAY AND IT WAS THE BEST DAY OF MY ENTIRE LIFE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH KEVIN I SAW KEVIN BARNES IRL IN REAL LIFE ON THAT STAGE and it was the most amazing awesome time of my whole life im not exaggerating. i dont go to many concerts cuz im quite prone to getting overhwelmed in those types of situations so it waas a little scary but i had my Biffle Bae there and she liked it too and i discovered that if i just Really get into it into the music and the dancing and the flow of the crowd it is actually fun to be in a sweaty loud crowd!!!! so i was literally going Crazy in there like screaming all the lyrics and it was so much fun and the dancers on the stage were even cooler than i thought they would be and it was amazing. even though like... the demographic of of monteral fans is like... people in their 20s and 30s and literally half of them were drunk off of this earth and they shoved in front of us and somone started literally GRABBING AT ME and someone spilled their dirnk on me...and they smelled horrible and they were so sweaty and didn't know personal space... but it was wroth it for kevin. and they act just like he does in the interviews (obviously). I LOVE HIM HES LITERALLY SO AWKWARD AND LIKE QUIET AND THEN MAKES THIS AWESOME MUSIC. it was actually so awesome. now i cant stop listening to of Montreal. i cant stop listening. I CANT LISTEN TO ANYTHING ELSE. my Favorite band ever in the whole world. my dream came true. i actualy cannot stop talking about it to anyone who will listen i start like tweaking out. im new.....
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im for Real a new person after this. i Literally peaked. SORRY I WONT SHUT UP ABOUT IT I LOVE YOU KEVIN BARNES. ok thnk you multiverse. anyways OTHER things happened this week!!! my sisters are home!!! my whole family is back together after a long timme and its nice... diffrerent from what i got used to. i love having my eldest sister around.. .shes amazing. my other sister came out to my parents last night (as bi... she has a girlfriend of four months)... and honestly thats terrifying. she saidnthey were like "u dont have to hide anything from us... wed like to meet ur gf.. we kinda knew" and all this stuff but it all feels off and i have no idea what they are actually thinking. and its not even me who came out but this sets the precedent for me and everything. but my sister was crying and all upset and shes going through an angsty moment which is understandable.. i would too. idk.. it all feels a little weird. and also... my mom Lowkey has problems with bisexual people (not a problem for me... just sucks for my sister...) like shes the mindset of like "just choose one" or just being weird about it and was saying questionable stuff about it today. i dont know. i feel sad and weird. but it was nice for me... my parents getting used to my sister being gay makes it easier to come out in the FAR FUTURE. i feeel bad for them. 2/3 of their daughters are gay... they have the whole spectrum too... HELLLPPPP. at least my eldest sister is a perfect angel who is going to be a housewife homemaker and have lots of grandkids for my parents.!!! also my dad is alwyays silent about that kinda stuff and its terrifying. idk... i feel bad and my sister has been acting weird and ive also just been mad with her recently so it all just feels off recently since shes back. i love her so much. also my mom got mad at me yesrtday because i went upstairs??? when no one was talking to me>>>??? while i was in the other room?like it wasnt that deep..
"My love has found somebody new
Though I should be cool, you know I do wish them
Only misery and for all his pleasures to corrode
If I could finish my jigsaw puzzle
I could start my life again
But I feel like I'm missing too many pieces
To make it to the end"
"In the sensory overload chamber
Massage the android until it turns on, die once every three minutes
Something to look forward to throughout your day
When people ask me my gender
I just tell them, "Brunette"
Oh, their brains are on peroxide
Phony pride speaks only when it should've cried"
and she went up to ask why i went upstairs and it seemed like i was not and i was like No i wasnt mad it was just loud down there and no one was talking to me and i was literally in the living room playing wizard101 when everyone was in the kitchen and she got PISSSEDDD like "why r u trying to act all autistic? so u can go to a loud concert with FURRIES and people spilling drinks on you and loud music but not be downstairs with ur loving family??" and she went ON AND ON ABOUT IT GIRL WHAT THE ACTUAL HELL?????? SO MUCH SO UNPACK. iwas so MAD. what the hell actually. ok first of all hating on furries is literally so 2018 why are we still on this. OH MY GOD I CANT STAND FURRY HATE. sorry thats what i literally stuck on. like Come on girl what. and just. everything else. is just so... weird.. and Btw a conccert with one loud persisting MUSIC is different than lots of overlapping noises and voices and tv sounds. and also IT WASNT THAT DEEP LITERALLY I JUST WENT UPSTAIRS BECAUSE NO ONE WAS PLAYING WIZARD101 WITH ME ANYMORE AND THATS THE REASON WHY I WENT DOWN IN THE FIRST PLACEFHKFJHSKDFJ. Girl. i was so.... Growls. Ugh i just had to get that out because isnt that so stupif??? literlalt Calm down. so yeah. anyways i babysat my favorite little 2 year old nadia twice this week and I JUST LOVE HER SO MUCH!! she is just the cutest little baby i have ever darn met... even though her favorite word is No and she literally refuses to eat when i want her to... AND IM MAKING MONEY!!! FROM BABYSITTING!!! its not too much but its awesome!!!! i love getting out of the house and hanging out with my favorite baby and favorite dog ever. i always feel like im messing out or that im msissing something but i think im doing alrightish.... i also went and watched inside out 2 with my freidns and it was rllyyy good!! and we went to the park after which was inttttttteresting. i think ive come to the conclusion that i need to suck it up and just get the FOMO from missing out on like.. my church friends and stuff.. because they rly do not match my freak
and tbh they just make me feel bad about myself and say a bunch of shitty stuff around me and i just have to sit there and pretend its funny or else im sensitive or something and it sucks rly bad!!!! and i have to pretend to be this other person and ITS NOT WORTH IT! i went to church r=for this youth thing on wednesday and it was literlaly mid af. they just aren't my people. it uesd to be this really fun social thing for me (as my current relationship with religion is one big question mark) but now i just feel bad about it. they just!! arent my people i think!!! and thats ok i literally dont need to be the best person for everyone no matter how much i try to be.... but literally the biggest reason i go at this point is FOMO.... but now im literally not going to camp, i quit youth groups, and i dont go saturdays, im just so disconnected that its just not really worth it. i always say this but its ironic how the people super inolved with church are the meanest people... LOL.... anyways i am very content with my 2 awesome friends i love so much !!!!!!!!!! anyways i made this amazing watermelon shaved ice today and it was so good and soft and also i made RAMEN EGGS and they are SOoSosoOsooo good.!!!! and im going on a vacation to the NATIONS BEST AQUARIAM THIS FRIDAY!!! so ill Update on that next MONYAY!!! YIPPEE!! im so o! excited. I HOPE. YAY! gooooddnigghhtt multiverse.. (Please awaken again... i cant believe no one has posted on the All page in a WHOLEWEEK!! i feel so bad posting twice in a row...) XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOOX
