YOOOO INTERNET WHAT IS UP IN THE HOUSE IS IT ME BROOKE AGAIN!!! for what might be the last monyay forEVER (jk. last monyay for the next 3 weeks MAYBE... i MIGHT get time to make a short post on one or two of the monyays? but im not really sure). this week has been SO OVERWHELMING BRO. i feel like im suffocating and dying and this upcoming week im also super mega busy and i feel like im gonna EXPLODE!! IT ALL CAME AND WENT TOO FAST BRO im gonna die!! i feel like i have no time to be chill. i dont even know where to start on my week overview updates. i guess da monyay class. but lowkey todays class was the most normal monyay class i think ever... OR maybe i blacked out during the entire hour. i have been so dissociated?derealized? whatever the hell the word is where you feel like youre watching your life through a screen and my mind is separated from my body. and then i realize HOly crap im in this body and i have control of it. idk its freakin me out. and i felt so out of my body during my class today too. so Yay! but anyways... no congas today *growls* but i played the latin beat from last week bc i practiced a lot and he was rly impressed! he even was like "Omg is isaac still here" (sub from those two times)...
BY THE HEX DISPENSERS
BY AUSMUTEANTS
BY CAVEMEN
"Everybody's got a problem that will
Make somebody have a problem
That person is a time bomb
That person is a nightmare factory
That person is a time bomb
That person is a nightmare factory"
"He acts oh so dull
A hoof cracked his skull
Kicked in the head by a horse
His brain is unstable
And jumping up out of that stable
I'vе been kicked in the head by a horsе"
"Kiss me
I'll kiss you
Hold me
I'll Hold you
Love me
I love you
Kill me
I'm dying
Never wanna be this way, I'm just a dog on a chain
but he wasnt there but nico was like Omg hed be SOoOo Imprissed and stuff he Loves latin percussion or something like that so i felt like a Baddie cool girl. and so we did that.... THEN randomly he was like Actually i wanna try doing rock today!!! YAY!! so we practiced fills and stuff... i love jazz and all but imm glad we did rock! it was cool... i learned about a new type of like Idk thing idk what its called but it was awesome. and he was like "hm im very impressed brooke you alwyas pick things up very very fast im always impressed!" so i was like YEYYY PAWS UP IN THE AIR :333 i also learned how to change a cymbal. so that was Sick. and then i was freaked out because he literally yelled at me last week but No we did scales and i was happy and i did everything good even though i was confused at half diminished.. +7... whatever... idk... but i got it eventually. i think i need to stop acting like im dumb in that class because i alwyas feel liek i dont understand when i do and i think he thinks im a lot dumber than i actually am... i just dont wanna act cocky and then look stupid when im wrong so i just act Extra dumb to make sure im all good but then it makes me look stupid when i actually understand. anyways i felt really out of my body this whole class so i kinda dont remember. but i did well! and he forgot about the open mic THANK JESUS I WAS PRAYING HE FORGOT and i did NOT remind him. so he is NOT going. thank You Eveyrone. he told me to bring a practice pad to my trips which is funny... i guess ill bring it to my family vacay.. it would be weird if i took it to asb camp or my internship thing lol.
but yeah... idk todays class was so Normal i was liek Wow this is so normal! but i parked really hoirrbly. embarassing! anyways!!! the rest of my week was Chillin! my sister came home and my hip gay cousin from oklahoma was here so that was cool!! although i always become super evil and a hoirrble person when my sisters are home so i felt like my hip cousin from oklahoma hates me. but they all left now... my sister is visiting my other sister for aweek so now its just me in the house with my parents which is fine i guess!!!! im busy.... anyways.... OMG YK WHAT HAPPENED??? so on saturday i slept reallyyyy bad so i was really tired in the morning and my family came over that day for my sisters b day and so before they came i was so tired and my sister told me to drink one of her Yerba Mate energy drink things.... if yk what im talking about... they r basically just energy drinks that are fancy Idk... ive had like 1/5th of one before (i forgot it in the car in the morning once so i never finished it) so i was like ok! but backstory about me is that ive actually never had an energy drink in my life because Idk... my parents always talked about how bad they are... and so thus they have always freaked me out so ive avoided them my whole life... and ALSO ive don't like the taste of coffee so ive never had a cup of coffee before.... so the most caffeine ive ever had in my life is like a can of soda or a chai tea latte (ive had at most 40 mg?)... SO ALL THAT TO SAY i didnt really think about it and i drank like MOST of that can of tropical whatever yerba mate energy drink.. which has total 150 mg of caffeine (NOT EVEN ALL OF IT!!!!) and OH MY GOD. it felt like SOMEONE LITERALLY DRUGGED ME like i felt like?? idk how to explain it but holy crap it was actually HOIRRBLE!!!
BY DIRTY FENCES
BY LCD SOUNDSYSTEM
i cant freaking find the lyrics to this song or literally any other song i have put on here and i am actually too lazy to listen to it and write out the lyrics... but i reallylike this song its fire...
"Everybody makes mistakes
But I feel alright when I come undone
You are not making me wait
But it seems alright as long as something's happening
I try to make you late
But you fighting me off like a fire does
You try making me wait
But it feels alright as long as something's happening"
liek my whole body felt tingly in a bad way and i was exhausted but also jittery.. like jittery but i couldnt move at all.. and I COULD NOT FREAKING BREATHE. like i was full on hyperventilating for a while there. and literally it got so bad i cried like 5 times (and i NEVER CRY BRO.) then i got all dissociated-y and everything felt so weird and disconnected and i actually felt like my whole body was going to explode. IT WAS SO BAD I FELT HORRIBLE!!! AFTER LITERALLY ONE FREAKING ENERGY DRINK BRO. so lesson learned im never having an energy drink EVER AGAIN oh my GOD WHY DID IT FEEL LIKE I WAS GENUINELY TRIPPING AND TWEAKING!! so that was really unfun... literally how Tf do people drink a lot of caffeine without feeling like that... like What the hell does it do to normal people if not that bro.. so Yeah that was really weird. but lesson learned i guess!! Zomg also asb has been so evil recently its been stressing me out SO BADDDD BRO we are doing freshman admissions for asb and Holy crap the president and vp are doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHIGN. its SO DISORGANIZED. SO LAST MINUTE. and they DONT EVEN CARE. so its all up to the sec, tresurer and me to do everything and im gonna die its horrible and im writing emails and answering like A MILLION DMS A SECOND doing all this crap. Growl. but the freshmen are really cute they are all really nice and Lowkey they are GLAZING MEEEE!!! so Thx. one of them said they wanna be like me when theyre a senior and that im rly pretty. Heehee *blush*. thanks IVY!!!! i feel cool.
but yeah!! i also had a hangout with my friends and we made piza and watched despicable me 4 and i think i had the most funnest time ever!!! it was so fun and awesome and i love my friends. anyway.. ive been SOOO out of it i feel so UNREAL DUDE!! like im gonna explode maybe. all the politics happening right now maybe is horrible i never wanna hear about any of it ever again and its all my parents are ever talking about and they r like.. republicans and stuff... so its like i feel hoirrble... UHUFHUFHUGH!! and update on my sister coming out to my parents, i was complaining about my sister for doing something small like idk i forgot but my mom was like "She'll straighten out... just give her time.." and she left then came back and was like "let me just address the elephant in the room.." and was talking about my sister and her gf and that she thinks my sister should have higher standards? (she doesnt think her gf is good looking) but that is so CLEARLY CLEARLY prejudiced... her gf is a BLACK BUTCH LESBIAN. short hair... full on stud (baddie). so that take was celarly from a place of homophbia (and probably racism) so yay!!Yayy! and she kept brinigng up how she wished my sister dated the guys that were interested in her and she wished my sister was just friends with her gf instead of romantic with her and that "its not abt the fact that shes a girl!! i jsut dont like her!!" (theyve never met) and that she can tolerate it but my dad told my mom that he doesnt want anything to do with i.t.... and my mom is just waiting for her to "straighten out" (which is very poorly worded...). and Oh man. i couldnt even say anything... i didnt wanna argue im so ssick of aruging with her on those topics so i just Sat there while she said all this crap homophobia horribleness disguised as other stuff. its just like. Oh!! will she think its a phase when i come out too? will she be like this when i come out?will she just be like "oh brooke will straighten out soon enough"? because Holy crap it feels horrible to hear all that from your own mother about my sister. but also my sister IS a little... not... like... i dont disagree that she is going through some type of thing rn
cuz nothing she does feels like HER. idk its complicated. i feel like evil because in some sense i agree with my mom that she is going through a funk rn (but i disagree that its because shes bi and dating a girl. a different kinda funk. a funk shes been in for a while). but also UGHHH ITS HORRIBLE IM GONNA DIE IF I THINK ABOUT IT. ok whatever anyways its all too complicated to write out.. also Oversharing alert. naywyassss a week from today im leaving for.. EVIL ASB CAMP FOR 4 DAYS AT UCSB IM GOING TO DIE!!!! last year was horrible and evil and they FORCE you into a council with NO ONE FROM UR SCHOOL and FORCE YOU to make friends with all the asb kids and ONE THING abt asb kids is that they are all evil and impossible to get along with!!!!!!111 and im stuck with them... for 4 days straight... i like the people from MY school that are going but i wont even be with them because they split us all up into councils... im actually gonna die. im not cut out to be a social girl i think.!! im scared. i feel like i have such a hard time getting along with like 90% of people in this world and IDK WATS WRONG WITH ME!!!! IDK IM IN SUCH A FUNK RN I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE A HORRIBLE GAL WHEN BOTH MY SISTERS COME HOME BRO !!!! IDK WHY!!! Ugh guys im sorry this has been a tough week i am way too out of it for DIS LIFE BRO! im too stressed/freaked to respond to any messages and i feel so bad!!!!!!!!! Guys the summer thing is happening NOOOOOOOOO NOOOOOOO NAWWWWWWWWWW. THINKING POSITIVELY DOE. ME EVEERYDAY BECAUSE BEING ALIVE IS SO COOL. OK I COULD COMPLAIN ABT OTHER STUFF BUT IM NOT GONNA B THAT GAL SO GOODBYE ill HOPEFULLY try to get a post up next monyay at my asb camp but i might not be able to... we will see.. ITS ALL CHIIILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL BYE INTTERNET XOXOXOXOXOXOOXOXOXOOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXXOOXOXOXX
