hello world. if ANYTHING EEVNN MATTERS ANYMORE@!!! MONYAYS ARE DEAD. THEY ARE GONE FOREVER!!!!!!!! ITS OVER. you know WHY????? the REASNO I STARTED THIS BLOG. THE TOPIC OF THE VERY FIRST POST I MADE ON HERE. Nico.... QUIT HIS JOB AS A MUSIC TEACHER!!!!!!!!! right today. he broke the news to me. guys. MY LIFE IS OVER. this is like a breakup..... my man.... GONE FOREVER IN THE WIND. to work in a STUPID ASS BOLT FACTORY..... because apparently this musical prodigy is an ENGINEERING MAJOR????? and i NEVER KNEW??? and got a job inspecting BOLTS at some aerospace crap factory. oh my Effing god. and its "tooo mucchhh this on top of school" he had to drop some job and he didnt wanna drop his middle school. so he chose to drop ME. HE WANTS ME DEAD. THIS IS HOIRRBLE TIMING. INEEEDDD HIMMMMM TO HELP ME. LIKE ACTUALLY this whole week i was like tweakin to go to this lesson cuz im struggling so much in jazz band and now... when i needed him most.... hes gone... and now all i can watch is his STUPID INSTAGRAM STORIES WHERE HE ONLY POSTS ABOUT HOW MUCH HE LOVES BUZZBALLS. and he STILL DOESNT EVEN FOLLOW ME BACK. ugh. ok like actually on the real being Fr serious. im like Actually upset because he was like... genuinely the best music teacher ive EVER had (and ive had a LOT) and theres no one ive ever met who actually cares SO much about the MUSIC and cares so much about how IM doing and wants ME to improve so much, like going over time to help with something and writing long pages for me and sending me shows to go to. NO ONE HAS EVER CARED THAT MUCH. AND HE HELPED ME SO MUCH. and helped me gain da love for jazz *cry*
BY MINUTEMEN
in honor of the death of Nico. i will share songs i stole from his spotify.
he Loved minutemen....... RIP
"A word war will set off the keg
My words are war
Should a word have two meanings?
What the fuck for?
Should words serve the truth?
I stand for language
I speak for truth
I shout for history
I am a cesspool for all the shit
To run down in"
BY MINUTEMEN
BY fantastischen vier
like GENUINELY he made such an impact as a teacher and ITS BEEN SUCH A SHORT AMOUNT OF TIME ( a little less than a year). im actually gona Kms and explode. this means the END of monyays. idk what my thing will be anymore. IDK ANYTHING ANYMORE. i am NO ONE WITHOUT NICODONTSURF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! my identity on multiverse is literally based around monyays and now... he TOOK IT AWAY FROM ME. ill try to keep the weekly posts... but i dont know anything anymore... without Him... i am just a Shell of myself.... (hehee)... Ugh and im gonna be so bad in jazz band without his help. he said that he would try to get isaac for my new drum teacher which is chill, i really like isaac and his teaching style works for me and hes like nico but a little less freaky maybe. Not the same. but i hope that will work. if i dont get isaac im ENDING IT ALL. and not to MENTION PIANO. do you KNOW HOW MANY PIANO TEACHERS IVE HAD?? and NONE OF THEM HAVE EVER WORKED (other than that ONE substitute i had one time at some random studio that didnt have any actual class slots for me) OTHER THAN NICO. he doesnt even play piano. im gonna lose my mind. how am i supposed to find a new teacher i NEED IT............... jazz piano is something i genuinely cannot do on my own and now i have the pressure to do well cuz im in this stupidd band. MY LIFE IS OVER FUCK MY STUPID BAKA LIFE WHAT IS THE POINT IN ANYTHING ANYMORE WHY WOULD HE ABANDON ME WHEN I NEEDED HIM MOSSSSSSST. ok im being dramatic. but my point still stands that it was so nice to have a teacher who genuinely cared so much about teaching me. im literally gonna die. Goodbye world after this post i will have exploded. i hope ur HAPPY at ur BOLT FACTORY nico. ill never see his STUPID GRAY HONDA CRV IN THE GUITAR CENTER PARKING LOT EVER AGAIN. Goodbye world
i had this song on repeat for like a month straight... THE POP AU DEUTSCHLAND PMOOO *sobs*
"They all work, they're the working mass
They all work for the ruling class
The State relies on the working man
They praise the party and the fatherland
They're all real to the party elite
All enslaved to the fascists"
i have no sense of PERMANENEC or anything... im left in the wind to struggle with jazz FOREVERR.... unless i find a really good piano teacher and i get isaac too. but its not the same. NOTHING IS THE SAME. anyways..... this week was Mid af.... jazz band is still evil but like im more like Whatever its fine about it now... still stressses me out every day (THIS IS ALL NICOS FAULT I WOULDNT BE IN IT IF IT WERENT FOR HIM)... and i still suck and i still need to talk to the teacher about how i suck..... but its like... ive accepted it. and im practicing and stuff. and the other piano guy is super nice and is FORCING ME TO PLAY AGAINST MY WILL even though im bad because he also wants me to improve Ig. thanks lil bro.... and we did an awesome song i really like.. Black Jack by Donald Byrd its so sick af i love it and i get to piano it!!!!! YAS!! but i was rly bad today but i practiced so i think ill be better tomorrow... i think.. i understand it!! i think i understand most everything, im just HORRIBLE AT APPLYING IT TO MY PLAYING. which sucks. everything is moving soooo slowly. Sigh. and that freak still stares at me eveeryyyyy single chance he gets and it still freaks me out.... but whatever!!! i had a sleep over with Da Squad this weekend cuz i was home alone abd i had Super mega ultra fun it was a blast and my nails are so Kawaii and Amazing Thank you for painting them my firned. andd on sunday i ate potato corner for breakfast and i went to the park and it was alright............................... idk...... *shudder*. ive been cooking a lot but its just the same 4 things. and i really missed my parents surprisingly i was really really lonely this past weekend.. but they just came home today so i am happy now. everything school and everything stressful is suddenly hitting so fast and i feel like im SUFFOCATING AND DYINGGGGGGGGGGGG asb is so stressful and being historian is so MUCH and U THINK IT WOULDNT BE but im losing my head over here doing all this Crap for everyone and sending giant long essays to the freshmen who have no idea whats going on.................. i was literlly tweaking. also i started watching atypical cuz i heard it had lesbians
"Hey is it that one, that stands at the entrance?
Or that one, that turns your head?
Is it that one with the big sweater on, man?
No, it's the woman who doesn't have time on Fridays"
idk. everything is happening so fast i have no time to react or even feel any way about it... and im so stressed about jazz band it kinda overpowers the rest of my life Maybe. im trying to be normal about it though. Heh. I CANT ANYMORE WITHOUT NICO NOOOOOOOOOOOOO I JUST REMEMEMBERED FML FML ITS OVER GOODBYE PLAESE HE NEEDS TO FOLLOW ME BACK ON INSTAGRAM IM GETTING WIDTHDRAWLS ALREADY NICOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO PLEASEPLEPLAPEAPSLRPK WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO MEEEEEEEE.... Goodbye world.... im so sorry about the horirble HORRIBLE news of NO MORE MONYAYS. ill try to recover from this horrible event... somehow. ill Lyk if multiverse doesnt die any time soon..... Goodbye Forever (not forever. Yk) XOXOXOXOXOXOXO
