or whatevr....
BY DESTRUCTO DISK (Splendora cover)
"Look right through me
Say I'm gloomy
Well, so sue me
Excuse me, excuse me
I’ve got to be direct
It's like a big train-wreck
You're standing on my neck!
You're standing on my neck!"
hello world! it is me!!! on not monyay ohhh yeah. hello... world... what a time. yay!!! everything is in the flow of the world.. and stuff and periods of change and all that fun crap.!! i feel like everything in everything is so lke intesnely intense im like WOAH!!!!!!!!! but ill start Like Usual. the NOT monyay class. Sans Nico. REST IN PEACE 4EVER. and it wasn't eevn isaac today *sighs* it was a temporary sub. i Like isaac. it was this random guy... who kinda looked like isaac but was like not as cool as isaac... i forogot his name oops. but anyways i walk in and i ask to do piano first (Obvi. SHUDDERS AND CRIES AND SHIVERS) and i share my Troubles and Woes with him annnnnnnd this guy is not a jazz pianist Wow who knew so he Tried. to help me solo... over Blackjack by Donald Byrd... and lowk he helped but i think honestly everything is up to me now to get over my mental block!!! but actually yeah he was lowk helping!! SOLOS DONT HAVE TO BE FREAKY AND CRAZY!! and i can be chill. i think.. maybe i can do it. but not in front of other people yikes. just practice! ive managed to make my entire instagram reel feed jazz piano videos to motivate myself to be GOOD! and i ordered the Real book and some chord voicing books for comping !!! (PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE WORK) but anyways he didn't rly rock with jazz piano but it made sense hes a drummer... but LOL we moved to drums and i was like... Da frick. cuz he was making me play some Easy crap liek Ok wat. and i mentioned i was working on latin beats and he whipped out the simplest bossa nova ive heard in my life... like Sans 2+4 hi-hat bossa nova. like Bro. and he was making me play Really easy fills.
BY AHMAD JAMAL
BY DAVE BRUBECK
BY RED GARLAND
BY THE CLEAN
BY ENON
and i could play everything really easy and he was like doing a Copy Me game and it was like the most Basic freaking crap and i was like Wow ok. and he was asking me what music i listen to (which that i always freeze up on because God i hate that question i like too much and i always blank out when people ask) but i said i like punk a lot Rn and he was like Hm Yk how to play punk? and i was like Ya kinda. and he just kept asking me waht i liked until the class was over Help *cry emoji*. like Okay thanks for nothing. but actually he SAID TO ME "Ya sorry if i didn't really do much I'm not used to Skilled Musicians coming to this studio.. its usually pretty beginning level stuff.. so you shocked me" HELLLOOOOOOOOOOOO THANK YOU FOR THE EGO BOOSTTTTTTTTTT. nico always taught really hard Freaky crap that i suck at. but maybe this dude wasn't into jazz or latin music like nico is, because he totally skipped right over it... and rock isnt really that hard at its core (not to say im amazing at it because im NOT. EVEN CLOSE) but anyways It was nice to hear him say that im a talented musician after feeling liek im the worst least talented girl in the world (in both drum & piano). Thank you i actually really needed that ego boost. he kept complimenting me and my playing. so even though everything he made me play was so easy and dumb it made me feel Smart that i could do it so easily and actually accomplished in my learning!! like im NOT A STUPID IDIOT AND CAN ACTUALLY DO SOME STUFF!!!!! thank you King. i didnt rly like him as a teacher tho soooooo i hope i dont see him again. Lol. but ya. he didn't know who heavenly was btw... erm... but he knew Big Thief and we were about to play Not. but we didn't. thanks A LOT. anyways yeah that was the class today. Jizz band is still going bad... im still trying really hard. i like my squad (my squad of 2 people. the other Freakily talented piano guy and odd vibraphone girl) (I actually do not know ANYONE else in that band and theres no way im talking to any of them. and they r all boys other than 2 girl trumpets and 1 girl on another horn that i forgot..). and i jsut make the other freaky piano guy play everything that is hard (Comping....). but i talked to the teacher that im struggling and he was very understanding and stuff. he still scary. but he didn't make me solo in front of the whole class!!! so Dat is a PLus!! Im working on it Mr Freakmon. he had us split into our sections and i was with the rhythm section with the drums and bass and vibes and guitar tho and we were practicing in our sections and one of the the Freaking bass players (not the one that stares at me) WAS LIKE "HAHA okay guys since we played all the songs..... and we are perfect at them.... lets alll SOLO!!!" AND HE WAS MAKING US GO AROUND IN A CIRCLE AND SOLO TO ONE OF THE SONGS. and i refused to do it and it was really embarassing! THANKS EMIL. he sits behind me in lang. FREAK. Trust one day ill solo. when i learn to comp. God i shouldn't have done this. but Yeah. im not performing at BTS Night which is sad but also the song is hard. but today the teacher wasnt here (because apparently his wife was giving birth???) and so everyone was messing around on their instruments
basic i know but Come On this song is so good Zont even
red garland please save me please red garland PLEASE
"You sit there like a great big cat on a sofa
Sipping your cup of tea, you're still wearing a pussy
I wish you would change it
You seem like a great big rat on a big cheese
Nibbling on a piece for you, you're still the big cheese
Floating around in your pond"
"I lip sync, have to pretend to conversation-sigh
You didn't know how, you've never even tried
Attraction leeches, but never ever dies
We're leaving next week, behind your risky eyes
We found ourselves none in this city
You said our songs' cruel, it sounds hissy"
my multiverse = my music progress journal + other random life stuff. but i think that multiverse doesnt work for anyone else that isnt auto logged in like i am so im always like forced to be at the top of the page until it finally breaks for me too. Dont worry im #Grateful for my privilege of still being able to post on here. anywayas normal life things.... MY FAMILY IS SO WEIRD ITS DRIVING ME CRAZY. ever since i basically drive myself everywhere now... my relationship with my parents is so weird... i went to dinner with them and it was.. Awkward. and i just talked their ear off about random school stuff. i think they are sick of hearing me talk abt my life or like dont know how to relate to me or something. my dad is chillin and making the effort.. idk abt my mom. i always say this but ever since my sister came out my whole family has been horrible and a mess and i dont rly like to be with them bc it all sucks and i hate elections and its all my mom watches and talks about and everything SUCKS (descendents reference. Heh.). my mom found a STIIZY in my sister (the gay one)'s room and it was so bad... and my idiot sister TOLD MY PARENTS THAT SHES A REGISTERED DEMOCRAT. and it QUOTE "broke your dad's heart" -my mom. its like my sister WANTS my parents to hate her. and my mom said "the middle child is always the troubled one" and constantly talks about how she failed as a parent. i hate it so much. i accidently/not so accidentally lied out of getting out of a family party (i was GONNA BABYSIT the same night so i wasnt gonna go but then the people cancelled but i just didnt tell my parents they cancelled and i didnt go) and i feel guilty and horrible about it but i just dont want to be around my parents like that anymore. mostly my mom.... i never know what my dad is thinking and he makes the effort to be a nice normal guy and not talk about horrible evil topics with Me. unlike my mom. idk but being with my parents is weird now and awkward. my mom is going through it cuz she thinks she failed or whatever. Girl you have a bisexual daughter (plus a lesbian she dont know abt lol) GET OVER YOURSELF. jesus.
and i asked vibes girl to show me how to hold the sticks and play the vibraphone and Wow. ITS SO HAARDDDDD WOWWW. I COULDNT DO IT it was like ltierally impossible!!! like holding 2 sticks in one hand AND CONTROLLING BOTH OF THEM IS ROUGGHHH they are SO HEAVY and you have to AIM FOR THE RIGHT NOTE??? its Crazy. i gained like so much respect for vibraphone girl because ITS CRAZY HARDDD!!! i thought it was like piano on sticks (which it is) but Dang. i was basically messing around with it tthe whole period it was a blast... and FREAKING GENIUS PIANO GUY goes up and just starts SOLOING AND IMPROVING ON THE STUPID VIBES AND MAKE THIS BEAUTIFUL GORGEOUS JAZZ SOLO AND THE DRUMS PLAYED ALONG TO IT AND I LITERALLY HATE HIM WHY CAN HE PLAY EVERY SINGLE INSTRUMENT FLAWLESSLY I HATE HIM.!!! Ugh. Kms. WHATEVER. AND ALSO YK WHAYT HE SAID YESTERDAY!??? one of the sax guys was asking if he listening to coltrane and THIS GUY. he says that HE DOESNT. HE DOESNT LISTEN TO JAZZ LIKE THAT. HE ONLY LISTENS TO IT INTENTIONALLY FOR THE BAND. ARE YOU EFFING KIDDING ME. HE SAID HE ONLY LISTENS TO ANIME MUSIC!!!!!!! I HAATTTEE HIIMMMM WHAT IS WRONG WITH HIM THERES NO WAY HES THIS AMAZING JAZZ GENIUS AND HE DOESNT EVEN LISTEN TO COLTRANE AND JAZZ LIKE THAT IM GONNA KMS RIGHT NOW THERES NO POINT IN TRYING ANYTHING. anyways hes really nice to me so its whatever. anyways im joining a club for my school where u can like be in a band and one of my Awesome friends already asked me to be part of their Awesome band for the club on drums and im SO EXCITEED!!! but Lowk the main songs they wanted to play were all rly hard on the drums but its ok ill figure it out. IM SO EXCITED. #APPLIED. anyways... sorry this is all i talk about. i try not to be annoying about it to everyone so this is how i say everything but this is like the biggest issue/most relevant thing in my life Rn but like in an evil and fun challenge way Yk.
i literally dgaf and its so sickening that she thinks that her daughter liking girls equates to her being a horrible parent that set bad examples and whatever. just wait until I COME OUT. like she genuinley needs to get the hell over herself. its fine i LOVE MY ROOOMMM i got a new BIG BED and i love it and im gonna decorate the walls with ALL MY GAY SHITTTT!!!!!!!! plus im so busy annd distracted so nothing Realllyyyyy matters like that!!!! Yay! #Senior. #OneMoreYearInThisHouse!!! also oh my God ITS FOOTBALL SEASON AND IM DYING OUT HERE I ACTUALLY HATE FOOTBALL GMAES SO MUCH every singgle time theres a football game i explode and i die and something goes hoirrbly wrong and if it were up to me i would Never Ever go to another high school football game ever again. there was a game last week and it was actually so horrible and evil and i hated every second i was verge of tears like 90% of the time and i was trying to hide in the asb room or on the visitors side but im setting a bad example as an Asb Leader. We need ASB justice for the people who can't handle football games. Please. I can't handle more I CANT PLELASE I HATE THEM. im gonna explode. (Haha girl just get over ittttttt B Normal!!!) but i got a new LABEL MAKER in asb so im looking on the Bright Side. I GET TO LABEL AND ORGANIZE THE WHOLE ROOM!!!!!!!!!!! Best day ever i was like trigger happy today. anyways today was Weird lokwye and so was this post.... See you all next not monyay if multiverse isnt dead and neither am i! XOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXOXO
