helllooo world..... soryry i didnt post... on tuesday.. like i was supposed to... SIGH... what a crazy and eventful amd busy and full week im going SO INSANEE!!! *shudder*... its almost over (NO ITS NOT). IDEK WHERE TO STAARRRTTTTTTTT!!!!!!! today is sunday... Ya thats how much time i DIDNT HAVE. anyways.... Heh. anyways... lets start with last tuesday.... Musbab.... lesson.... kinda sucked Balls. life without nico is Rough guys. Rough. i got a new teacher and hes lowk mid... idk he was fine... he was like... nico's age.. hip 22 year old.. hip glasses... whatever whatever. bro noticed my stupid ass BABYMETAL shirt i wore when i came in and it was EMBARASSING AS HELL!! why WOULD I WEAR THAT. no... im letting my freak flag fly.... Trust. anyways... he was FINe. and asked me a bunch of questions... about what i liked and what i wanted to learn and i told him and stuff and i embarassed myself but its WHATEVER. but anyways i think we were on some rock thnig and this Guy. *growl* asked to see me hit the kick drum and YK WHAT HE TOLD ME? he TOLD ME TO START HITTING WITH MY HEEL UP!! and like.. ok Wtf. EVERY OTHER TEACHER (Nico.... and substitutes) have been like "you can do heel up or heel down! whatever is ur preference!" but this guy was like "YA oONLYYY heel up is good.." and IDK WHY BUT THAT REALLY BOTHERED ME. like... Ok tell me what to do when every other teacher told me heel down FREAKING is FINE. let me PLAY HOW I WANT HO. anyways i think im gonna ask if i can get isaac because im way too picky on my teachers and i didnt rock with him for only that reason. Heh.....
BY THAT DOG
BY PEACH KELLI POP
BY HEAVENLY
BY DIGABLE PLANETS
BY MILES DAVIS, ROBERT GLASPER, GEORGIA ANNE MULDROW
"Together forever was never on the tip of your tongue
You'll sever whatever endeavors wherever you run
So clever whenever, if ever, you say where you're from
We're together forever remember when we were young
When we were young"
idk.... maybe i just dont like change. anyways that was... fine... meh. anyways they gave me the same guy as last week for piano... the guy that DOESNT PLAY PIANO.??????????? so idk WHY THEY DID THAT. because we just SAT IN THE ROOM while i told him what i was bad at and he was like "UuUMmmm.. i dont.. play piano..." BRO I ASKED HIM HOW TO READ A CODA BECAUSE IDK HOW CODA'S WORK AND THIS GUY SAID HE DIDNT KNOW HOW TO READ A CODA/????? OK BRO WHAT TF ARE YOU DOING WORKING AS A MUSIC TEACHER IF U DONT KNOW HOW TO READ MUSIC??? like ok u dont know piano but YOU DONT KNOW HOW TO READ A CODA IS CRAZY. and i told him i was playing boplicity for BTS night and he was like.. Ok.. ya lets do that... but it was literally just sheet music... and i can do that.. im just a little slow. and i was like Haha its ok.. i can do it like i understand this... because its SO COUNTERPRODUCTIVE to just Read the sheet music while he just.. watches... me... (i used to take piano lessons like that and it was so weird... like why tf am i here if ur just gonna WATCH ME READ SHEET MUSIC? IM NOT LEARNING ANYTHING.) and i was like no.... but HE COULDNT TEACH ME ANNYTHING ELSE. so i just. sight read the sheet music whilst he watched. AWKWARD. Kms. they said theyll give me a new teacher who actually KNOWS PIANO. this week. so hiopefully i get a teacher who can play the piano!! *crosses fingers* Because i Need it... *shudders...* anyway on that tuesday i had JUST been told that i had to play Boplicity for back to school night on which was on thursday.. and i had to learn the entire song in two days.... so That's why i did NOT post... i was GRINDING THAT SONG SO HARd you have no idea its ALL I DID. All. I. Did. i even skipped half of school to practice.. i was Serious bro.
"Black cat thirteen
Biggest eyes you've ever seen
Following you home at night
Making your face go white
Black cat thirteen
Sharpest claws you've ever seen
In the shadows stalking prey
Knowing that it's your last day"
anddddd back to school night was ok.. lowkey i was so stressed out... first time performing piano since i was like 11 loll... and also i had like 3 other booths i had to help with and i was stressed it wasn't gonna go smooth.. but it was fine.... im Chill. the call time for jazz was so early and i did NOT need to be there that early.. i literally just SAT in the band room while battery practiced.... so Loud... i was in the corner while ALLL THE JAZZ BAND FREAKS were idk hitting eachother with shirts and being scary.... i was so Scared... THEY FREAK ME OUT (idk how to interact with teenage boys). and none of my two friends were there so i was just there in the corner... UNTIL BASS BOY WHO STARES AT ME ALL CLASS WHO LIKED ME IN 9TH GRADE GOES AND SITS NEXT TO ME. and he said Hi to me and i said Hi back and he KEPT SCOOTING CLOSER TO ME BROOOOOOOOOOOO. thank you Shane. thats the first time hes spoke to me all year after STARING AT ME LIKE A FREAK so it was a big moment. thanks Ig. lowkey the whole day he was like at my side the WHOLE TIME he was moving next to me when we were waiting like Oh my goddddddddd thanks ig. and we performed... and iwas kinda a lot more scared than i thought. usuallyi dont get stage fright but i was like Heart Racing really nervous Hands Shaknig. and i messed up preettyyyy bad but everyone said u couldnt hear. BUT I COULD HEAR. and i was so embarassed i wanted to die. (WE SKIPPED THE SOLO AND I DIDNT NKOKW???? AND THE BAND ALSO LOWK MESSED UP AND I MISSED SO MANY CUES) but the other songs that WERENT mine were REALLY GOOD and i was like dying and squirming they were so GOOD!
"I spotted you out in a bad place
Pock marks and scars
Painted on your face
Talked to me, charmed me
Now you you just alarm me
I won't be fooled again"
"It's Saturday I'm looking at the streets as my Nikes
Cover asphalt
Day gives way to night
My weight crush trash broken glass
Play the wall with one foot up
"Yo What up Ish?", "What's up""
like wow i love being in that class JUST BECAUSe i can listen to amazing beautiful live jazz EVERY SINGLE DAY. like Wow what a beautiful thing i get to experience every day #GratefulEvenThoughISuck. and the drum solo was so beautiful and amazing. and also lol the other piano guy told me this week that he "might be the best musician in our grade" Which would be a really annoying and arrogant thing to say IF HE WAS WRONG BUT NOOOO HES RIGHT HE LITERALLY IS THE BEST MUSICIAN IN OUR GRADE im gonna Kms why do i have to compare myself to him every day i will NEVER CATCH UP. but its fine because hes lowkey my biggest fan even tho i suck he always cheers me on and says i can do it and explains stuff for me. Thanks King ig. but anyways... i had to lug the GINORMOUS KEYBOARD from the gym to the band room and it was the heaviest thing ive ever had to carry and my face was all red and it was so hot and it was lowk rly embarassing.. i had to ask someone to help. Im a big strong man... TRUST. sigh its so over for me. also i broke the school's grand piano last week so that was also embarassing. Sigh. but apparently the jazz teacher told my parents at back to school night that i was doing Exactly what i needed and that jazz piano is hard blah blah... which is also embarassing he percieved my parents... SHUDDER. MY MOM SAID SUCH EMBARASSING STUFF TO ALL MY TEACHERSFJSFSKD. but anyways thejazz teacher always tries to like talk to me but its always in such an awkward way... like on thurs he went up to me and other piano dude and was like "WOW UR GENERATION IS SO DENSE.. Haha minus you two. ur normal. DONT U AGREE?"LOLLLL WHATTTTTTTTT..... like thanks for excluding me but LOLL..... wait also unrelated but my friend asked me out of the blue on thursday "soooo... are you like.. going for more of an androgynous vibe orrr....???" LOLLL WHO ASKS THAT... i just thought that was really funny of her to say. what a funny gal. i redid my room and it looks SO KAWAIIII i love my room rn! idk i feel like ive been so busy ive had no time to thinnnkkk about things...... thhhiiinnnkkkk...
no lyrics... its a Milestones remixxx and holy CRAP. this album is so good and such a good imagining of miles davis' music its actually amazing.... i love this song so mucn.. also Ghetto Walkin' is SOO GOOD... actually like this is so awesome i cant describe it
my sister came home this weekend and it was MID AF as usual. jk thats mean but also i always become evil.. and im extra mad at her cuz shes gay Obvi. (I'm not homophobic. that statement makes sense in context.) but my freaking mom, before she came, went in my room unprompted and just DUMPPEDDD on me like oh my god can she stop dumping all her freak ass homophobia on me... this time she was like "I'm worried your sister is gonna drop another bomb on us.. Why else would she come" and all this crap i was like Okay literally just. Chill out. im trying to Nap. literally all she does is dump all her crap on me like i literally DGAF THAT SHES GAY OH MY GOD. im so sick of it. idk i started like tuning it out... but i hate being home. #stayingBUSY. idk just dyanmics whatever. but this weekend was fine... i just wish i wasnt such a middle man, it sucks so bad my mom dumps on me but i also dont want to tell my sister all my mom says... i dont wanna hurt her and also i dont want her to hate my parents even more. and my other sister told my mom that it was just a phase and told my mom that my sisters gf didnt match her vibe and that they wont last more than a year... which is so messed up and idk why she would do that. I SHOULDNT HAVE TO DEAL WITH THIS ACTUALLY LIKE I SHOULDNT. STOP TELLING ME THINGS I WAS SO HAPPY LIVING IN BLISSFUL IGNORANCE. plus my sister is making gay people look bad... and idk if she made it better or worse for me when i come out. Ugh sorry i always dump abt this i just need to get it out somewhere. maybe i should do something abt it idk. but my sister was supposed to bring home her gf last weekend but she didnt cuz my mom got ssick and i just KNOW it wouldve gone horribly. idk... my sister didnt rly make an effort to talk to me this weekend so i didnt either... i Stay perpetually mad at her Ig... Haha. Just sad that whenever anyone asked who my best friend I would Always say my sister and now!!!!!!!!!!1 Hahahaha. Ok im sorry i have so much love in my heart ill stop dumping. Lol.
UGHHH I HAVE TO GO TO SCHOOL TOMORROWWWW im gonna EXPLODE. microeconomics is the hardest class ive ever had to take im struggling so bad i hate numbers so much and also i have the worst memory known to man WHY DO I FORGET EVERYYTHINNGGG also i have been such a bad friend to everyone in my life recently and i feel so bad... i cant ever focus on multiple things at once... and im like slipping socially.. theres so much to think about that i can only put the energy into the things i NEED to do because i cant think about anything else and now im just sucking as a friend... and i keep thinking "ill get better after [some random event] happens!" but then that thing passes and ANOTHeR thing comes up that takes up all my time and energy and its just the cycle and it SUCKS and i MIss them. and this happened last year and idk how to be a better friend and also upkeep my academic life.... and just like breathing in between everything. idk i have so much love for my friends... Sigh. i lowk did this all to myssself so i probably shouldnt complain..... i just have no energy TBH. WE BALL IM A BALLER IM A BALLER POSITIVE VIBES ON DA ENERGY FREAK YES. IDK WHEN ILL POST NEXT BUT PROBABLY ON TUESDYAY MAYBE I AM SORRY THIS ONE IS SO LATE I KNOW I HAVE SO MANY FANS WAITING (Lie) thanks.... Ok.. Bai... Xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
