Recent things that have been going through my mind.
So I finally got the chance to hang with a dear friend who I hadn't seen in maybe over a month this past week. It had been pretty nice to catch up with her, to give feedback over some work situations that she has been dealing with. And just talk.
And to give some backstory, I met this person earlier this year and we hung out a lot over the summer. A little less once fall started just because there were some things that she was going through along with my own busyness.
Now that I've given that brief bit of context (not trying to surface too much information about her) - I've just been thinking about how I feel about her. That's an intimidating question to process.
Because we are friends, definitely - good friends at that. I do think there is other feelings there. I don't think they are romantic in nature (i genuinely don't think so - and that's a relief personally). But there are additional feelings there.
I find myself returning to the word alterous. That's probably as good a fit as I'm going to get.
I just need to be honest about that. If nothing else. I need to be up front about that. I had known I felt a way about her earlier. But having to take care of myself for a few months while not seeing her much had made be really scale back what I could genuinely hope for with her.