from me, from me, from me

from bloody hands

from dizzy head

and then she runs toward the light

https://tarraxahum.neocities.org/pof.html

and burns herself

in ways I never could

a child is born from anger

a child is born from anger

We had a double rainbow today.

May it make you smile.

And I'm sharing it with all of you.

Trying new things. Maybe imagining my anxiety as a separate entity will help. Maybe I'll be able to talk her down.

I used to do that a lot - imagine the bad parts being an alter ego of sorts.

But I always pictured her as someone trying to hurt me. Someone ruining my life.

I don't see her that way anymore. I think she cares.

I just wish I could tell her it's okay. We're in no danger. We're going to make it.

Calm down.

But most of all I hate

But most of all I hate

that I got SO used to

Constantly apologizing for everything

Constantly apologizing for everything

that I got SO used to

Okay, so how do I do this.

I'm a butch lesbian in my mid-twenties.

Any pronouns are a-okay.

So, hi there. I'm lost for now, giving up the captivating fast media addiction isn't easy. But I'll try to stick around.

And if I do - you can expect some musings, some gayness, some gushing about my characters and some of me being REALLY weak towards strong fictional women covered in blood.

But mainly and primarily I am, admittedly, someone chasing the high of being a teenager new to the internet.

I know I'm an adult. I work, I do taxes and stuff.

But I also realize that I lost an important piece of myself when I traded the wild curious web I knew for the convenient professional one.

Especially since I failed to keep it professional anyway.

Somewhat of an artist, somewhat of a writer.

A type who hyperfixates on stuff, for better or for worse.

I have universes of my own making which I neglect and dreams I can never quite catch.

Hi. I am Alex.

Which is a generic name (I say so with love), so I took on the nickname of AlExDee. You know? 'Cause XD? I think it's clever, idk. Cringy ex-teens, rise up.

Wanna be friends? ^^