cute robot

i love this

guy!

it is me!

again..

im trying a new template! i realized actually tho i SUCCCKKK at colors and color thoery... like OMGOGMOMG i made a trollsona OC!!!! and it took like 50 years to figure out colors lol it was so SASADDDDDDD!

well anyways. its late at night again! which means more thoughts about the world and myself in it i guess!

in my head i am constantly fighting the urge to spill all my thoughts to everyone ever. but im not sure if thats true.

i guess there is a few places i belong to. i have home, church, around best friends, in asb, in envirothon, and in my broadcast class! home is pretty self explanatory. i have to hide a big chunk of who i am, but i can relatively be the real me whilst hiding that. church i can also relatively be loud and outgoing everything at once, but also still hiding a big part of who i am. i think i act my truest self to my best friends. theres nothing for me to hide and i think thats the me that i self-condemn the most. i will talk and talk and talk, even if they don't care about what im saying, and that is ok. asb i become super quiet and observant. almost unapproachable! envirothon im the exact opposite. im loud and im the leader! and almost the same in broadcast, except a little bit different.... but i dont know how to say it with words.

ive been thinking about how i change personalities all the time! to the point where i have no idea how people perceive me.

in all those places people perceive me different. i belong in all those places! i dont really know where im going with this. i just think im stuck so much in my self perception of a mix of all my personalities that i have no idea actually how ANY of them perceive me!

but i guess perception is a weird thing anyways!! ^_^

and maybe it sounds like a joke

but its the truest thing ever and i think everyone should live by it!

i always say i have the YOLO mindset

even though it sounds silly. its true! you only live once! so LIVE!

im actually scared of who reads these... and ARE there consequences to my actions?! not so sure..... i dont think im physically capable of being one of those aesthetic cool deep thought girls.....well Baiii! :3c

GOOD DAY THE INTERNET INTERDUBS LADIES AND GENTLEMEN! im at school. this is a normal post rnn. Hold up. the day i can be normal about things will probably be the day (THAT NEVER HAPPENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!). but like Yolo. you know what i am living on the Yolo mindset but my teacher was like Wut gurl dat doesnt maeeke sense...Freeekkuhhhhhhh.... but like idk. YOYLOLYOLYOLYOLOLYOLO. im so hungry. alsooooo im sooo sick of... Envirothon,,,,,, im like a FRAUDD i swear taht teacher sees a little Too much in me. like GUrl i got a B in aPES i am NOT a genius. maybe im just a bit loud. and oversharerer. DISGHGISHGIOSGHOISGHO

toadty this morning i had a Deep conbo with my mom in the car it was kind of interesting.. she said that my sister insd realy misses me and that shess super depresso espresso and like Basically thinks im the Best sister in the whole freaking world LOL JK. but Yah i was like literally about to cry liek OMg. i LOVE my sisters so much. they are like mybest freidns. wait OMG I CANT STOP SAYING "AF" IN FRONT OF TEACHERS OMG Wat ad heck Boi BE FRAEKING PROFESSIONALTREJDKSG

Girl Bai,., dat cat is witerally Me. i lost my phone and i thin k it was the scariest moment of my life. Butti. found it Yah Yeet. im hanging out with my BIFFLE BAE today and im so Hype AF to eat boba. Nya~ ^3^. its onlyWendsyaay. and im so sad. Hold up. OMG i was in APES today and my taecher and me r so CHill but maybe a little Too chill and so i was like Literaly falling asleep . and she gave me a freaking like anxiety relieving fidget TOY??????? and she was like. I Can Smell the Anxiety Radiating off you. thank you my queen but i am just Tired. I FELT SO BADD...

apes is just the most confusing class ever. does anyone like thje Trolololololol Epic Memzeeee i made hahahahahahahahaahaha.. Hah.Hahaha. my Biffle Bae rly likes trolls so i made it for her. actually its insane that PEOPLE WHO R LIKEING TROLLS ARE THRISTING OVER HICKORY. i read a horirble hickrory x branch fanficiton with my Biffle Bae and i think im sscarred for life. he is actually the most unattractive troll. NONE OF THE TROLLS ARE ATTRACTIVE??? Ur so perfect perfect perfect (trolls quote Haha Nyaaaa~~ :3)

i watcghed mean girls and. now i aam reflecting on my theatere kid phase. i think the drama teacher at my school crushed ALL MY DREAMS. what a FREAKING FREAK. Sigghhhhh.. nnyyaa~~ Duuuude. i think newsies was the best thingn taht has ever happened tio em OrNAw. maybe one day ill post all the newsies fffffffff......... K. Nbm. SEHFSDFKDHSFGKh. Happy..Wednesday.. Ugh. toda y i went around filming random peopele at school and i think people thought it was weird (it was). it was for a Cause Hah. Let Ur Freak Flag Fly (Le Epic Sherk Ref >.<) GOD this comptuer is hard to type on. Epic Bruh Moooomrent.

GOD we need to bring back the freaking TROLOLOLOLOLOL.. it was so Fiyuh. Combusting RNRNRNRN!!!!!!! Gurrrrrrl. GOD. we as a society neede to bring back LETTING OUR FREAK FLY. r-r oactiy;o think i nede to stop tlaking. i think i am too ironic to the point where its not ironic anymore. but people think im being ironic bnut they also dont know Hahaha.haAHaha. Maybe NOOEN of it is ironic. speaking of ironic: oh my. GOD. does anyone know that tik tok furry that does cute little k pop dances because i genuinely think that its the cutest thing to. ever exist and im SICK of hiding IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BRING BACK FURRIES!!!!!!!!!

Wow. these people are so weird. thank GOD im the only normal person here. DUUDE. i watched precy jacksojn show Eveey tuesday at 6 OCLOCK!! itssSOOO good im actually so super obsessed. not... as obssessed as i am with MINECRFAT!!!! omg. i think i am the same person that i was like idk 2 years ago. i got back into the mc speedrun community. Congrats Drip120 7:01 TROLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOLOL. !!!!!!!!! OMGOGMOGM and freakign. FRUIBTERRIES MY D1 MOSUE DROPPER o ymh GOD!!! the PST life is actually so hard doe. God. you can take the girl out of minecraft but you can never take the minectaft out of the girl.

im super hungry and im scrared that i disappointedd my envirohton advisor because i didnt show up to a meeting! "its not like you brooke!!" is waht shes gonna say IGGJJGJGJ!!!! Holdup i think i just didn't eat lunch. omg i hate the STUPID APPLE FREAKING GIRLS WHO ARE OBSESSED WITH MEN and whispering their little things im acrually so sick of it i dont think im physically capable of talking to man obsessed people.. actually or people in general.... i feel so ISOLALTTEDELDEDDD! ok Sry bai Luv u All until the next time :3

Hello internet! I have a lot of drafts on this website i will never post and that makes me saddddddddd. yo-yo-yo-yolo! You know what I've been thinking about? I feel like I kind of live in the mindset that some people "get it" and some people just don't get it. and maybe that's true in a sense but also maybe i shouldn't have such an exclusionary mindset. i guess i've been just really thinking about how i work and the world works recently!!!

and maybe im being naive or I'm thinking too deeply about it or something but that shocked me!! its just a lack of empathy i suppose! i just don't understand the point of like... idk.. being a person.. if you think like that? if you dont CARE about others???? idk... i think my brain hurts from thinking too hard about it. in hindsight, it makes senese that my friend thinks like that because thinking back on it, she often is not the most caring friend. which is okay, i love her anyways!

anyways what i was going to originally talk about,,, the whole "getting it" thing. i have been super stuck on that mindset because idk. theres justlike.. a large group of ppeople that i just do NOT get along with.... i just become super Awko Taco LOlololololl.. but its kind of silly? and exclusionary! i have my little mind list of the people i have so many mind lists... IDK IM THINKING TOO HARD ABOUT THINGS i think i shoudl CHillax...

and its weird!! how i will never be in anyone else's head but my own. my friend was talking to me about how she works and it was really interesting. the topic was something trivial like breaking up with her s/o but it was just the way she went about it! she told me that she has accepted that she is toxic and mean and that doing mean things doesn't really affect her. and i don't know WHY, but that really got me... like i just don't understand that. how could anyone have such a small mindset? how can you ACCEPT that you are a bad person without even trying to make an effort to be a good person?

not sure why but that really stuck with me. sometimes it feels like all the christians i know are all the meanest people i know. and in a way, that makes sense. they are christian because they need that support in their lives. and it's not like i can say anything, i am constantly lingering in some in between place. but maybe not making decisions isn't so bad!

history is just absolutely INSANE! its one of my favorite subjects but i hate my class.. but i like what we are learning.. right now its WWII! and god its like i am learning about the world for the first time over again or something i dont know how everyone else in my class isn't more shocked at how horrifying the past is. genuinely. i dont know why its affecting me so badly? i wonder why people don't really care. it really bothers me that ill never be in anyones mind but my own. im just too big a perfectionist. and probably a narcissist. i feel like probably narcissists think the way that i do. im so obsessed with myself and how i come off to others. Sigh.

ever since my breakup i have had way too much time alone which equates to way too much time to think which is just horrible NO ONE should ever leave me alone. terrible things happen. TERRIBLE THINGS! i need something to happen im stuck in horrible limbooooo!!! i dont know which is worse, being stuck in that relationship or being stuck in my own head. probably equal Tbh. but luckily, i fell very over it! the block button genuinely does wonders! i am realtively rly happy right now! just WAY to self obsessed and nitpicking my every move. maybe im a lot more like my dad than i thought... hm!

i feel like everyone on this website is so deep and i am just Not. Idk. i need sleep Get out of YOUR HEAD GIRL!!! goodnight internet!

hi the internet! ^_^ its me againnn Lolll! and Oh man. its 11:51 pm and im stuck with my own mind. trying to fight slepeing. oh MAN. i was practicing my drums and dude. genuinely its so hard! at least jazz drums i feel like a fraud! annd aside from all my funny business, i think my teacher believes in me t oo much! like hes always telling me liiiiiike that im going liike rly well but like. i actually suck so bad! and i know practice makes perfect( which i freaking am omg)! but idk i feel like such a FRAUD all the time!!! my advisor for the team im on.. i have become super close with her but ive never had her as a teacher before

and when i tell u this lady believes in me she BELIEVES in me. its crazy! and its super nicebut i feel like ive totally fooled her into thinking im this awesome genius girl LOLOLOLLLL???? i feel like im FOOLING EVERONe into thinking im someone im not!!!!!!!!!!! and then one day... THeyll all Know. Ill get her AS A TEACHER and shell realize im not a genius and that i actually dont nkow anything *CRIESSSSSSSSSSS*. and its not like im not used to people believing in me! maybe i jutst dont bleieve in myself. but for gud reasonn i FR SUCK AT THE DRUMS oh my freaking god triplets are my worst enemy why would anyone do that to me i am foreal rage quitting! i think i just need people to stop caring so much abt my potential. or to stop believing in me so hard. or MAYBE im a narccissist. maybe i need to stop caring so much about everything!maybe ill keep this a short post! HAaha lol

SONG OF THE CENTURY = PEACE TO ALL FREAKS BY OF MONTREAL

GOD internet. I AM SO SICK OF MEN "EXIStING" im goina to actually explode oh my GOD!@ its freaking MONYAY. because of FREAKING course it is. i dont konw what the FREAK is wrong with me/. PEACE 2 ALL FREAKS. I FREAKING GUESS. Gurl go die. anyFREAKING ways i was going to "monyay" lkesson as always. and GOD today was not my FREAKING day. Bro freaking quoted MLK the momenti said hai and i was like Wat. GIRL GO DIE WTF? and it was so HORRIBEL. im the mosst SOCIALLY AWKWARD PERSON TO EVER EXIST!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cri*... bro sits RIGHT THERE watching... can see every freaking pore on my freaking DUMB AF FACE. oh ym god i was so SCARED. my face is like permanentply red or somehitng. FREAK AFREAKINGLERT!!!!! i FROGET everything. im so anxious. im so nervous. because King is like 2 freaking inches away from me. WHY? WHY WASNT HE AT HIS OWN FREAKING DRUM SET.

omg. UGH! then bro is like I forogont to give to playlsit ahadihdiahda I said iw as going to give u songs ADSJDNOLOLOLOLOLLO and ai be like HhahhaahHDahddhadha yYEYSEYSSS and hes Liek ok Ya gimme ur email. and i ggive my school email like a FREAK LOSER oh my GOD!! Because i actaullu check that IGUESS. Brah goes SLOloloolSry i didnt folow u back on Instagawwwwnnnnmmm i dont hate u Lol ur just a FREAK WEIRDO WHO KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT LIVING IN THIS WORLDLL!L!L!L!L!L!L!!D!DD!D!! im liike OhYah i get it. okok. I PLAY MY STUPID FREKAING O HMY GOD TRIPLETS THAT I SUCK AT im like OMg i forgot how to do this AGAIN BECAUSE HES SO CLOSE GET AWAY FROM ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FREAKFREAKFREAK!!!!!! like GIRL oh my fos. So i play and im like SWEATING im SHAKING im so ANXIOUS WHY ARE YOU SO WEIERD AND SOCAILY AWKWARD AROUND EVERYONE!!?!??!?!?! I IT IS JUST GETTING WROSE AND AWORSE EVERY. DAY. HELLOOOO??!?!??! like im just this close from exploding my body

so i get through it. somehow. and its liek Omggmgg ur the best SUTPIDSDENT EVEERRRR liek e u be PRacticitnigng like bosss slike yessss im SOOOO glad i have someone that ACTAALLYYY practiess like ur AMAZAING~!!!!!! i be like aw Thx Aha. but Gurl u SUCK at accents its embarassing. Brah was gonna rage quit i Freigging sweawr. like Work on it and im like K. then Bra goes how was that Lead Sheett i gave u becau e im just SOO Othoughtful and i ACUTALLY CARE ABOUTTHE PEOPLE THAT I TEACHHH?!??!?!?!!? nd im lkeme Yah no James is a BEYOTCH and needs to LEAVE (teahing style Sux), gues i think sno one has atualy ever CARED ABOUT LEARNING OR SOMETHING BECFORE THIS like OH MY GOD. so oMGMGORIMGORGNO King says like If U WantI Can TeachYOu PIano HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

OFIMSOFNSOP. WHO THE HELL ACTAULLY CARES THIS MUCH?>?????!!?!? ?WHAT KIND OF FREAK AM I DEALING WITH THAT CAERES???????GOD WHAT IS HAPPENING???? like "Sorry i dont wanna Poach you" LIKE AN ELAPHENANT EWAHT??? (I pretended like i knew that that meant but i ddid not IDIIOT!!) i be like i GOTTT you Heheheh King is so WORRIED like say this and this and this and this and is like Yah Wiat Ur a SMART KID. you got this. SMART KID??????!?!?!?!?!???!?W@?! joh otm god. AA IA SMART KDKJSIKIKDIKDIS. BRo is showering me in comlplkiments like I know u r wanting to leanr and awhatevreim liike Aw thx (turning redder than i already am by the second my face is so hot u can like cook spam on it idk) GOD I HATE "LESBIANS" SFREAKING SICKOS ALLL OFNTHEM (/J)

adn im being so nanoying like AYAHHHH ill beatlell my Mommymyyyyy oh my god iIDOIEOT SHUT UP SHUT UP HSUT UP GO DIEEEEEEEE a he likes Omg i acanda teach THeory and AJAJZAZZZZ PIANO AIDAO NI NEED THAT FR THATS WHAT IM FREAKING LOOKING NFROERRR ASorryr BEYOTCH JAMES AND UR STUPID ADF TEahINg style GOOD freaking BYEBEYBEYBEYE. Goodnight. So im like YAy. i play and i SUCK FREAKING ABLLLS LIKE ALWAYS like GOD AND STOP FREAKING WTAHCING ME SO CLOSELY WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME LIKE U CANT ALL BE LIEK "relax Omg" WHEN UR RIGHT THERE WATCHUING MY EVERY MOVE JESUS FREAKING CHRIST ETHO S LABBBBBBBBBB

Me going slowly more and more insane as each day passes:

TAE LEE

LIKE GET OGG OF ME. i don tt think ive ever playd more horrible in my LIFE. i SUCK AT IT ALL. IM QSQUINTING FOR MY LIFE TO SEE THIS SHEET MUSIC THAT IS SO COMFUNSIING im so tense and sweaty and i feel. You atching my EVER.yY. MOVE. SOPT CARING SO MUHCH SOTPSOTPZOPSOTPOTPOTP. "THANKS" a LOT. Bro goes inot my DTuPIF JAMES BEYyoVH room and im like Zoning Out daydreamig about like idk emails or something or maybe going thoerugfh and overhinking ever single word i have UTTERED since i have WALKED through Athese freaking doors of PURGATORY. so much for "SMART KID". like Naw someone shoot me in the head right now. im like allWEierdnad Awakwrd like thx all tiny. i get the HARDEST FREAKING SHHEETTT MUSIC OG MY LIFE WHAT DO YOU WANT FROM ME??????

its horirble. and every. montay. is oinGOING TO GET SO MUCH WORSE its ALL DOUBLEING BY HORRIBLE AMOUNT LIKE OH my GOD IDK HOW ILL BE ABLE TO WIDTHSTAND THAT GOODDDD FIRBID JEUSS CHRIST. (refreshing m y emails rn) WAHT IF I GAEBTHE WRONG MAIL LIKE A IDIOT. iwould do that. annoyiongasssssssssss..... stupid Freking "DUDE" DRESSSSS LIKE A DUMB MASC LESBIAN ACT LIKE A MASC LESBIAN OH MY GOD CHOOSE A SIDE?@?!??!?!?!?! UR FOOLING US ALL U LITERALLY WIN. my type thought is RENNEE FREAKING RAPP i think i alke died at least 10 times every time she came on screen during mean girls im not lying i need her so bad. Do not get me started. Gurl/ iCANNT STOP OVERSHAINTG if i keep recognizing that i overshare maybe it will stop being a problemm like Haha ur so funny Girl! (UR NOT!)

I found all these pics on pinterest Btw.

so we play rebel girl. and i kinda suck as always but its whatevr! and its so fun! i love that song and its rly fun to play. and i learned cool new concepts~! and i loved it. and he was like Omg ive never rly taught punk so this is like new for me. and i was like :3. (keep in mind im actually the most AWKWARD GIRL EVER in ALL these INTERATIONS LOLOLOLOL!) god that song was awesome and we played it together with the speaker and it was so amazing. so then hes like... i can teach you some PIANO THEORY. AAGGGHH and i was like YISSSS!!!! he said "oh ya i dont rly play piano but i play VIBRAPHONE"???? GOD WHAT A FRREAKING GUY.

so we go in the piano room. im like idrk any theory. Lol. i can only read sheet music. Hah. so he's like ok so he teaches me a little stuff... some excersize and stuff i already know and then he teaches me the cricle of fourths (which i dont know!!! so aweseome) so hes like wat ru doing in piano? so i show him the Half Sheet of messed up writing Piano Teacehr James wrote me. and i was like OH ya i dont rly know.. i kinda just zone out in my classes bc he doesn't give me worksheets and he talks and he plays and i dont rly play and i need to be doing something to learn so i forgot everything Lol. and he was like Oh thats weird. i hope you dont feel that way abt my classes. and i was like OMGG no im actually playing. like its sos different. im fr learning from him. so then nico is so funny and is like yah he should be like... giving you stuff... you should say something....

so YES! fire amzing Monyay. AAMAZING start to the year! 1 hour and 10 whole minutes witj bae. Working. FREAKIN. OVERTIME. NO PAY. god jesus christ. it was amazing. ive peaked. Hahahaha IM SO NORMAL ABOUT EVERYTHING EVER JESUS HRIST. WHO ELSE DOES THIS PLEASE LET ME KNOW. i want so bad not to be me i think. i have more thoguths not abt this but i think this post is too long so ill make another post. :3

and so then he taught me new stuff! i get humbled so fast because i suck every time he teaches me stuff. just more practice for me! which i liked pracitcing. its fun ^_^! omg also he was like how was ur new year! and i was like omg i did nothing... Wbu? and he was like i saw The Drums in concert... i was like oh i never heard of them (IDIOT AF. i will listen NEOW. ugh). thats so COOOLL!!!! so yeah. cool fricking guy. anyways so he tauguht me all this stuff. hes taking on the TRUMPET which is so cool? and he was like "yep thats just what we do in this thing called music!" HEELLLOOO??? hee is jsut so Derp >.< also hes reading a freaking MILES DAVIS BIOGRAPHY AND IS INSPIRED OH MY GODDDDDDD im gonna loose my marbles.

anyways. let me tell you what happene d this Monyay. so i go. to my drum class. and King Niclo was like Hai and i was like Hai. wait im going too slow. we played jazz drums beats... whatever the term is.. which i freaking practiced myBUTTT off on! seriously. i did not stop playing until i was good at them. and i was good!!!!!! and he was like "omg ur gonna bring me to tears... none of my other students practiced" and i was like Omggzz Hahahaha :3.... (jazz drum is SUPER HARD!!! whatever swing stuff is CRAZY! it took me like 1 whole week nonstop practicing. so im rly proud!! i can see my progress.)

like jeez. soooo ya. soooo annnyways! my class ended and im supposed to have piano right after.. and guess what.. MY BEEYOTCH TEACHER JAMES WASNT FREAKIN THERE! i was like Omg. :( (but i dont like james hes kinda a bad teacher :P) so NICo wuz like... oh.... I can teach you for 30 more mins if you'd like :3 and i was like Heck FREAKIN YES! and so then we were the last ones in that studio bc the other teacher girl left... so we went to the drum room. and he was like So whatcha wanna do. and i was like ROCK SONG!!!! lets play REBEL GIRL BY BIKINI KILL!!!! and he was like yass.. whats that called.. riot grrl (stop feigning innocense. i know you know Nico) and i was like YISSS i love riot grrrl... and he was like Omg do u know Bratmobile and i was like YES!! Love them.

and i was like Yah i should.. so hes like you should give you like sheet music... and like... Not. and i was lke yeah. and he was like Omg sorry not to shit on him (HE ACTUALLY SAID THAT LOLOL. cursing funy) like he can teach however.. (backtracking af. but i agree with him) but you should do this and give him sheet music to teach you so you can like actualyly practice and learn! and ask questions! and i wa s like Yah thats my problem >.< but ya i hopefully will... he was like :3 (mr vibraphone. jeus fricking christ.) so we left. and i think today was the best day of my life. Fit was fire too. fishy t shirt. baggy jeans. white vans. and that freaking lesbian ass carabiner.

the drums the band he saw VVVVVV

REBEL GIRL! I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH!!!! so woman!

the freaking VIBRAPHONE???! ^^^^

he told me to find jazz sheet music with this font!!!1

me being normal about everything:

hello! >_< it's me again. its the first day of 2024! today was really good! i won really good at Squishmallow Monopoly against my family. obviously. ^_^ and guess what! Its MONYAY!!!!!!!!!!!obviously. i was 3 weeks no monyay. but no. TODAy is monyay! and it was worth the 3 weeks. Lol. idk why i have brainrot. or Wut da heck is wron g with me for this. but i talked to my sister and she also gets like obsessions with people she think are cool. but i still feel like.idk. i think i should syart being normal. but its so funny in my head!

THIS IS SO UNTERESTING. i need to mind dump somehwere. winter break has caused me to have too many thoughtsand i cannot keep spamming my twitter and instagram. i need to overshare somewhere else. but i think the orgin is that i want to not be me so i want to be my coolo guy! so i will change everythuiig about myself. Yis. Uhgh. (FREAK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

worms

trolls

crystals

cats

Hai. x3 &

nneewww theme who Dis? >:3 its FINALSSSSS WEEEEK! ohhh yeeaaahhh Ha.HahaHAhAH.. OMgOMg. its MONYAY. you know what that means. It;s 30 minutes of HELL DAY!!!!!!!!!!! sorry i meant to type H. E. double hockey sticks. im going to be so ereal. I am so FREAKING BAD at the drums. i ccan pretend like im good "oohh im good" IMM NOT GOOD and its so emarassning. yes ive been playing for like 3 months but that doesnt matter.Naw Naw NAwwwww

Erm ok. OMGOMOMG. back to talking about the newfound freedom ting. I have realized that ive REVERTED. back to my old obbsessions. LIKE.IFK howto explain it... the pressure to be a cool girl is GOOOOONNNNNNNNNEEEEEE and i can be who i truly am: an EthosLab ultra fangirl. Yes. YES. YESSSSSSSSS.>:3 xP -V- i spendt all the weekend. watching it. UGHGHGIURGHIOGHREIHU. im sick. SICK!!!!!!! u-u tjat one is so cute omg omg u-u -v- omgomg ^-^ :3.

ASLSO I CAN FREAKING ENJOY DEF FREAKING LEPPARD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO TIRED OF HIDING. this. is real. this is me. (dramatic) anyways i saw that KIKUO is going to a CONCERT NEAR ME!!! I. FREAKING. LOVE. KIKUO! im a kikuo fangirlzzzz TO THE MAX!!!! they r going on with Bo En. but i only know that one Omori song (ive never played or watched it in my life.). idk if ill go. because my one friend that said they wanted to go idk if they would go because i actually dont know them dat well. What. The. Bruh.

Erm.Ermmmmm. i saw a SPACE SHUTTLE yestrday at the SPACE CENETER and oh my god. it was the most awesome experience of my LIFE. no one understands hoiw much i FREAKING LOVE SPACE SHUTTLES. my MIND was BLOOOOWWWWWNNNN. if i was a troll from the movie Trolls Wold Tour idk what type. i. want to say FUnk but idk. maybe techno because they r so cute. Lol. i love trolls i want to watch the new movie prerrtty badly. How bad thouhg. you know what. i NEVER STUDY FOR ANYTHING. i have an 85 in my APES class right now waht the flip. i think thsis is so terrrible. im ghoing to olose it. i think senioritisi is hiting.... OMG the best song in thd world at this moment is freaking BUG. by KAIRIKI BEAR. YUESSSSS. OMGOMGOMG

i was trying to play the new gamemode on project sekai because i havent played it in a while and its SO HARD!@!!!!!!! i was dstruggling so hard. also they added Sanrio to ffreaking the game? i anyways. im useually so G-O-A-T-ed A.F. at that game and now im NOT. ugh. i think that all of this is all me jsut trying to convince myself.. that being a single pringle is good. IS IT THOUGH. thats it. i QUIT! im SICK of codependant lesbians. im turning Stirhgt for the love of my life (my drum teacher. who im seeing. today. 30 minutes..alone..in a room..with him..) UGH. who have i become. exactly who i swore to destroy: a man obsesser. except not really. i just watched this guy in my class pass his friend a weed vape XD thats so NAST. TIME AND PLACE BROTHERS AND SISTERS.TIME AND FREAKING PALCE! ur literally in a basic level united states history class. Calm. actually every single person in this class is SICK.

why is this pic of the challenger.. that genuinely is so so sad

OMGODKGLMG XDXD i just watched him take a hit. LOL. im going to throw up. right. NEOW. my back hurts. HElp. i think im stressed to go to.. my drum lesson.. and be even worse than before. how TF am i meant to.UGH!!! also i wanted to drive there on my own because i GOT MY FREAKING DRIVERS LICENSE but my parents arent letting me TvT Cri. independence when Wheennn! isnt it crazy. Naw staying positive. also i think i have a really big oversharing problem. like. REALLY big. i cant stop telling people my business! liek calm down boi nobody...HAha.PLEASE. someone needs to give me a tutorial on how to be norma.l. NOW. anyways. i like how monyays always make me overthink EVERY SINGLE word i say ever in the whole world and then when im reflecting i have to physically cringe. I ALWAYS HAVE TO SAY SOMETHING EMABBARASSING. (part of oversharing problem). its ok YOLO hahahaahhaha(NO) Mkay monyay is almost over so i need to psot this so baiiiiiii

58 y.o. gay from Germany,

just drop...

You want to know more about me???,

/reference Hahaha I swear im just a girl.

Love the beautiful and funny Things in the World ..........

Catdad, Plantdad, Trashrat,

Something about me....???

good afternoon little ones. *meows loudly*. im in my Boradcast class rn. and im SO BORED! i tried asking people if they were in love with anyone but i think they were too busy doing imoirtant things to answer. sighhhhhhhh. i took my APES FRQ today and i LEFT FOUR QUESTIONS BLANK LOL. awkward! i hate STUPID MATH why in the world would ANYONE PUT MATH IN APES!!???!?!?! whatever AF!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IM SO BORED!!!! everyone is like...folding tripods or something nerdy idk.

anyways. I GOT MY DRIVERS LICENSE YESTRDAY!!! i am being so real when i say that i am entering my awesome cool independent girl era. For Freaking Realzie!!! im gonna drive everywhere to all my lessons (with the love of my life. but i think im sick of that anyways. he updated his pfp on Instagram and he is wearing a FREAKING NEWSIES HAT?HELP. i love newsies. i think its a sign. anyways he is doing a DERP FACE in his pfp. I LOVE HIM. (i need to be him RIGHT NOW))

ROFLCOPTER!!!!!!!!!!!! :3c

Erm anyways. i forghot waht i was saying. Oh ya the other love of my life talked to me today. he Dapped me up. i started swooning right then and there. it was soooooooooooo cuuutteeee. (im going to THROW UP RIGHT NOW. no im not. i neeedd himm!!!!!). this is all part of me being a new girl. a new point..in..my...life....YES. HahaAhaahAhAHA. AWKWARD!!!! im feeling EXTREME pressure right neownewoennemmeoreeowmrMRREOOWWW.. oh my god. you know what i LOVE? COMIC SANS. im so freaking TIRED of all the STUPID FREAKING PEOPLOE HATING on. COMIC FREAKING SANS. literally the scum of this stupid world. Sorry. I didn't mean that (i did). Erm. Awkward!

stupid ugly freaking nerdy cat needs to DIE!

(joke)

OMG. you know what is ALSO a part of being newly independently cool and awesome??? WATCHING. HERMITCRAFT. you may be like "ewwww.." NO. I LOVE ETHOSLAB. i watched ethos secrety life #1 yesterdya and i was like. Wow. I missed this. I missed him. we need to throw it back. truly. omg. i am trying to quit tik tok and stop being addicted to my phone and i think i am failing. i literally deleted tik tok but now im on YOUTUBE which is INFINITELY worse... maybe? the videos are longer.... OH MY GOD. everyone in my class is revealing THEY LIKE/D HERMTIT CRAFT. no one here knows i secrelty had a twitter stan account for hermit craft. BLESS UP. maybe ill post on there again. WE NEED TO THROW IT BAC.K. now that i am a new person

THE MAN!!!!!!!!

actually im SO SICK OF TWITTEEERRR!!!!!!!!!!!! they all say the SAME THINGS on there. and thwn i feel so sad when im on it. Sigh. So Depresso Espresso. i need to read like a book or something. but Naw. Nawwwwwwwwwww. I HAVE NO MOTIVATION FOR ANYTHING!!!!! Ever. but No. if im keeping the mindset. THE MINDEST! ILL BE NEW. TvT. omg. i was listening to Kairaiki bear freaking BUG the song and it is SO GOOD!! These SICK PEOPLE next to me are watching MumboJumbo hermitcraft season 9. i thinkk this is it and i go to the afterlife neowmeow. God Bless America (God Bless Hermicraft) I LOVE MUMBO WAITTTTTTT.... *cries and sobs*

K. they stopped wagtching it. Nevermind. they. r watcing anime? Nerd Alert!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Lolzzzzzzzzz!!!! I HAVE THREE MINUTES LEFT UNTIL I DIE!!!!!!! HESLLLLPPPP ME RIGHT NIOW. if i have to go home today and do something ill die. DIE RN@!!!!!!!!!! OMG. i love RHYHM GAMESSSS SSOOOO MUCCCHHHHHH. OMGOMOMG IM ON THE COVER OF MY SCHOOL NEWSPAPER IM SOOO EXCITED!!! YAYAYY!!! I FEEL SO FAMOUS!!! BEST AWESOMETHING EVER! ok i need to go pay attention in history class now. Bai! Love and Peace 4ever <3 :3

Happy Coolsday! in my ap seminar class right neown enoeenowneoneennmereeeoowww. that fire cat is me BTW its my selfie. Lol. i love the font comic sans. JustCantGetEnoguh (by the black eyed peas!!!!!!!!!!). today imm on fire. Kinda. I NEED WINTER BREAK TO START. i need to buy christmas presents. UGHH. thats so hard. its really hot in this classroom right now. OMG my face turns red so EASILY. its actually kind of rly embarassing. yesrterday i was in Monyay class with the LOML and i swear idk waht the eff is wrong with that place but my face was getting so red.

this mornining i got starbies matcha latte with oatmiklk and vanilla coldfoam. im so afficted its so GOOD OSSOSOS goofdddddd actualyl omg.z. Bussin'! BUTTTTTTTT ANYWAYS OMG my freaking dumb stupid HI-HAT AND THE CRASH ON MY STUPID ELECTRIC DRUM KIT BROKE OH MY GOD IVE HAD IT FOR LIKE THREE MONTHS I LITERALLY JUST BOUGHT IT!!! im so genuinely upset. i was so sad yesterday i started listening to sad music. oh my gof speaking of

i think that being a lesbian has granted me the power of curating and creating the most specific curated hyperspecific playlists known to man. i think someone could pay me for it i swear. i was like i need to make a hyperspeciifc playlist that specpfically has these lyerics but also sounds this way. and i did it Ez Claps. i think thats my lesbian magical power. i made a rly good one yesterday about Moving On and being an Empowered young gal. (kinda.) i love you fiona apple and kings of convenience. God Bless America. (and im fs not going to the mall on saturday. IDIOT!!!!!)

kings of convenience! (perks of being a lesbian)

im making it rrainbow can you tell?! omg. i was on the Gram (as one does) and thius. girl. from my ASB CLASS genuionely i dont think i have more hate in me. she did her stupid af insta post going to disneyland her caption? was "so acoustic <3". girl. GIRL. i hate everyone ur so ANNOYING and unfunny. Ok. sorry Love & Peace!!!!!! Love you.. queen. Lol. UGH. UGGGHH. whatever. i am addicted to my phone anyways. i need to get out into this world and do things with my life! now that im a new girl... im a new girl Independent awesome and i make my own decisions!

cat eating grass gif. ALL THE OTHER ONES R BLOCKED ON MY CHROMEBOOK!!!!!!

ooookkaayyyy. anywayas.ssssssss. waht else.. i talked to a british person yestrday it was crazy she was so cockney. and also UGH. i hate people with supprotive parents (lie) (whatever IDC) (jelly AF). You gotta do waht u gotta do ig. is it bad that i make thsese posts soso long???? i like making them long because they r aesthetical... but i feel like everyone else on this website makes their posts short but probably puts more effort into making them aesthetical. Idk. Its Chikll.

this is an actual image of the supportive ally cockney british lady i talked to. i wonder if her kid is gonna go to my shcool.

"Ello can you tell me what ASB stands for Idk this American Lingo still getin used tu it!" - her

me when i pass my drivers test on THURSDAY! VVV

mreow. im taking my drivers test on thurdssay. im scared i wont pas it. if i dont ill be so embarassed probbly. i want jamba juice though. Sigh. ok Neow im in my 5hth period. HAhahahaahhahaahah. i just summoned someone CRAZY from their 5th period to takea pic. Wow. #Healing..... (okay. LOL)!!!!!!!!! i think im making a bad decision to go to da mall with da X-GF on saturday. maybe...i need to go back on that decision. but also i need to Stay Nice. idk.. this whole thing is rly weird. im liking da Single Pringle life tho (i can be in love with random Men! and be truly myself without Someone thinnking im CHEATING ON THEM!!!!!!!!!!!! Erm. Awko!!!!!!!!!!)

Hey everyone. and......

OOh man. I love mondays. today is thje day i get to see the LOVE OF MY LIFE.

and today is also the day i see if Heknows. sigh.SIGGGHHH

me @ 6 pm tonight FOR FREAKING REAL! VVVVVVVVV

Haiiiiiiiizziezzzzzzz & Welcome 2

WHITE IS RELIC/IRREALIS MOOD - OF MONTREAL

BEST SONG = PARANOIC INTERVALS/BODY DYSMORPHIA

This is 100% the best album to exist. NO MISSES. every song is FIre. it was hard to pick a #1. they are all my #1 (other than Plateu Phase... that one is SO GOOD but def not the best on the album :3)

TERROR TWILIGHT - PAVEMENT

BEST SONG = CARROT ROPE

This album is FIRE. i was listening to it this morning and i was like Oh man im Jammin the flip out! Also hard to pick a #1. special mention to Speak, See, Remember & Spit on a Stranger. SOOOOO FIRRRRE

IN NO PARTICULAR ORDER! but also not of all time... kind of just.. my favorite albums at the moment. im sure it will change in like a month. LOLZ

Heavenly ALL THE WAY!!!! this album is awesome. me and my madness is just the most beautifully composed song. not to mention sperm meets egg, so what? SO FIRE!

BEST SONG = ME AND MY MADNESS

THE DECLINE AND FALL OF HEAVENLY - HEAVENLY

LIGHT FLUX - TANGERINE DREAM

BEST SONG = LOGOS 2014

DENNOSTALGIA - DENNOKO-P

BEST SONG = DAI DAI DAI KIRAI

NEWSIES (ORIGINAL BROADWAY CAST RECORDING)

CERES & CALYPSO IN THE DEEP TIME - CANDY CLAWS

EVERY. SONG. IS. A. HIT! this album is awesome. i listen to it when im sad lowkey. or mad. or when i like to feel like a weird girl. TIMELIMIT KOIBITO single handedly got me through a breakup i swear.

This is so embarassing but id be lying to myself if i didnt add this. Sigh. its so good. i love newsies with all my heart. i know every word by heart. BEST MUSICAL (no bias)!

BEST SONG = ONCE AND FOR ALL

THIS ENTIRE ALZBUM IS SO NICE AND BEAUTIFUL words cant explain it makes me want to frolic everywhere. so many sounds but they fit together so well.. so beauutiful. and fire.

BEST SONG = TRANSITIONAL BIRD (CLEVER GIRL)

EXTRAORDINARY MACHINE - FIONA APPLE

BEST SONG = PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE

I CANT STOP LISTENING TO THIS ALBUM. its so good. ifeel so empowered listening to it. EVERYTHING IS SO FIRE. i know like so many of these on the pian`o. its just so GOOD idk how to explain. every song hits.

SPLIT PERSONALITIES - 12 RODS

BEST SONG = SPLIT PERSONALITY

YESYESSS! 90s GAY ALBUM?!?!?!?!?!!! so. good. i wish you were a girl. omg. chromatically decliing me? OMG. makes me feel so many ways. good to listen to when ur sad fs. the lyrics r so unique too. awesome.

LED ZEPPELIN IV - LED ZEPPELIN

BEST SONG = BATTLE OF EVERMORE

i had to add this lovelty classic in here. so unique. OBBVI its led zeppelin... literally stairway to heaven album there is no beating that. every one. so. fire. have you lived if you havent listened to this?

This album makes me feel so many Emosions. it is perfect for when you are just waking up in the monring and want to be Hype Af! its just so . nice . to listen too idk how to explain. FUN FACT: i saw TD live! (they played logos!)

Love you all. BAI!

Thanks for listening! music is my pasison in everythhing. WHAT IS LIFE WITHOUT IT! but i need to stop being so pretentious about it. but thats a convo for another day.

THIS IS SICK AND TWISTED!!!! SICK. AND. TWISTED!!!!!!!!!!! I am sick AF!

IM DELETING MY INSTAGRAM I FORGOT I HAD MY SPOTIFY IN MY BIO AND I FOROGT IM A STUPIDDDD GIIIIIRRRRRRRLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL WHO PUT "DO YOU WANT NEW WAVE OR DO YOU WANT THE TRUTH" AS THE #1 FREAKING SONG ON MY STUPID NOVEMBER PLAYLIST I NEED TO GO DIE RIGHT NOW OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDD IM |DELETING ALL TRACES OF MYSELF ON THE INTERNET. iswear to god if anyone (cool) in this world finds out that im secretly a WEIRD GIRL (they all knwoa) this is the worst day of my life in this starbucks right now. i am never recovering. HEK KONWS HE KNOWS HE KNOWS HE KNOWS

*cries*

T-T *sobs*

Naw but Fr. i need to be osbsessed with a person (thast not...... Them..) or else ill probably not be able to function. so its all okay. i am DISTTTRACCTTTTEDDDDDDDDD from da life da life da life AAGGGHHH at least funn distraction omg all their friends are here WHAT IF THEY ALL HATE ME BECAUSE I FREKAING BROKE UP WITH THEMEEMENRSJNKJSNKJSNKJGHSKLGHSKJGHK .

Haha WHen you tru your best but you don't succeedd..... (depressing depresso edpresso) (i did not try my best... im a little Stupid.) Nvm everyone. ONE WEEK UNTIL (dreaded) MONDAY.

AHAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

am i allowed to post things lke dis... who is wathicng... am scared.... ii think my passion in life is oversharing on the internet. SOMEONE HELP!!!!

Hai x3 this is me Brooke in Ameircan Images class Hehehehehehehehehe

Today i am really a sad Gal. SO. SAD.

This is my Story: 11/27/23 I followed my Bae AF on Instagram yesterday. thinking... hoping he would follow me back.

Burt alas... he POSTS ON HIS STORY 15 MINUTES LATER AND I DID NOT RECIEVE DAT FOLLOW BACK/.

so i blocked him on my secret account. and changed my username. and changed all my caption on my main account to NOT TALK ABOUT TREES. i was so depresso. and he STILL has not followed me back. 14 hours later. no follow back.

i was so sad.... so i viewed his story on my secret account called "tree lover". and then i saw it was posted ONE MINUTE AGO (STUPID FREAKING POST ABOUT ORCAS). i freaked. hell know its me. because i post about trees on my MAIN ACCOUNT CONNECTED TO MY NAME.

so i was like Hahaha omg Idkkkk i always forget to think of a song.... (i dont. i am just FEIGNING innocence. and i was like Waiitt... either Chrsitian Brother by Elliot Smith (idk if he listens to elliot smith HELP but hopefully thats cool) Or Come and Play Into The Milky Night by Stereolab haahahahahaha i was just listening to that in the car (HE SAW STEREOLAB LIVE AND I KNOW BECAUSE I FREAKING SAW HIS STORY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

so then King said. yah i actually saw stereolab LIVE last year... so fire.... you should liste n to Fuses from the same album.. and Percolator... by Stereolab.. and i was like OMG YES im obsessed with them right now im in love with you. (kidding. Im atualy a lesbiuan so idk. i think i just need to be him right now. why. WHY. WHWHHYYYYY)

anyways he found out i go to chuech and idk if thats embarassing or Naw. but the fit was Fire (denim jacket, brown pants, green button down shirt.) so WHatever. Im ajust so AWKAWRDRD. tyats so emabrasssinn g.

P.S. how do you make your font bigger on this webstie. i had to upload a picture of that. Emabrassing. >:3

i was so Emabrasreed. i was like its been a long day... and he said Sure. SURE!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? WAHT THE ACTUAL HELL. DOES ""SURE" MEAN???!?!?!?!? and then i FREAKING messed up the FREAKING thing he was teaching me and he had to STOP and teach it really slowly because my frekiang HAND FOOT COORDINATION SUCKS (durm). i was so depresso espresso. he definitely thought i was a Freak. Freeeeakkk.

anyways. durinhg my lesson yesterday (he is my teacher Lol). he was asking me if i practiced something and i started stuttering really bad. REALLY BAD. Idek why. i was so depresso and my face got so red.

and then he was liek... Haha your stuttering soooo bad hahahahahah loloklololo.

Anyways. duriing that same lesson. AFTER the stuttering Incident. he was like Lol wat song do u want to play. and he doesnt know this but im Devious. and i stalk his Insta REGULARLHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

the stereolab album its from!!!!

so he was likie Omg.. wait ive only heard the demo version does dat have drums,... and iw as like Idk i listen to the Non demo version (cool girl) so he played the demo and NO DRUMS! and i was like Waiitt is this the demo... and he was like Yah ill play the NON demo and i was like ok AND IT WAS THE DRUMS! so i PLAYWED it. (and i sucked. im actually so bad at this instrument its so embarassing. sigghhhh)

ELLIOT SMITH!!!! <3<3<3

Anyways thats it. #FirstPostOnMultiVerse. I tink ill just post my Tohughts on here. Lololoololzzzzzzzzz Thanks. Baiiiiii >:3c <44

< ----- Me. on the reg #Lebian :3

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anwyays. i think that