the world i see

short hikes, friends, wooden texture, stationery, what do you see through your eyes?

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Vötnem vnëvömum kök?

Ţnëkžê ţemütku fûšûcšo zê?

Zëvetjinžê zê šizûtukmunfê kök?

Zëvetdatvmê šafömsösöm nu törnënvmê töţimgötsösöm zêâ düdötšo kök?

Zanekukmunum kök kikimâ?

Ţnadycžê zê kökum?

https://sajemtan.miraheze.org/

https://discord.gg/VyhuStV

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Zo do düdötfê sin!

Söjesömšo šit gëšökgešik.

Lekmêt küksut jam fmüžikdê vücdâ set.

Xyt möšnemâţot manmonvâ zežötmun xafömšo dit doâvmê söm žimansonun.

Let vafakdaţnycfê düc gûnrüc.

Gešekrücmunjucum!

http://jamesconstable.github.io/honey-time/

https://discord.gg/VyhuStV

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https://sajemtan.miraheze.org

Katöcšo cadëgyn.

Lnagenžasik snic mûretšo ro.

Zëvetâ kê ševetâ ro düdötfê.

Xüm dût zëvetâţotvâk dûganmêt kišnümšo dic xüm vnisytâ kê xüm cadëkâ.

Žažûn düm zyrökso zimšo dit.

Ţmak tücekfê möt ro.

https://discord.gg/VyhuStV

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we gather medicine for heartache

so we can act a fool.

A Wild Non-Binary Appears

Non-Binary stuff

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JR, Signing Off.

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minecraft collage

January Cravings

#frogsupremacy

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I've been living off of tea. My brain won't

function without it.

I also crave lots of junk food in the cold times. I have some small mint chocolates from Christmas that are very nice but I can't eat too many without getting sick.

I want a nice decadent cocoa with whipped cream and cookies and sprinkes.

JR signing off for now.

Wane, Wax, Wane

a meditation on the essential character of MAN

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There's a line from an old radio show, The Shadow.

I remember once being thirteen and standing in the alley between Colombi's Motel and their laundromat, and I imagined being in Italy, in a corner of a bustling plaza, an old man sitting to his coffee and a pastry, nearby pink geranium petals spill out of a hanging planter, a newspaper spreads before me, I am content.

Someone wrapped the persimmons in Chinese-language newsprint.

Who knows what darkness lurks in the heart of man?

At least I think so—that was before my time.

Who knows?

Where did that image come from?

When I actually did get married, we considered a spot that was just like that. But there was a pandemic on. We ended up getting married in my mom's backyard, under her apple trees.

Shadowlight, moonlight, candlelight, firelight, sodium light, twilight, spotlight, highlight, torchlight, starlight....

My whole life I've suffered—or maybe I should be less melodramatic and just say "experienced"—strong feelings about the future.

When I was 22 and in Dharamsala, too afraid to get out of bed, my room was so cold, I remember laying there and thinking I saw my future wedding, on the coastal plain of Northern California, the redwood forests to the east, the crashing surf to the west. I saw it plain as day, like I was a helicopter spinning by.

Let's call them pseudopresentiments. That's fun.

I 💖 My Cat

Everyday is Caturday.

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Lulu wasn't supposed to be on that but it felt nice.

Moving International Travel Goals to 2023

2022 - 2023

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For all reasonable-ness sake, international travel goals have moved to next year. We still got coronavirus.

From Camming to Streaming! - Money!

Vision 2022

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I've stopped doing adult camera modeling and I've switched over to doing tick tock lives. Tick tock lives actually pay money!

I've also decided that on top of doing politics and reading tarot and fortune telling cards, I'm also going to get those lightup rave gloves and do hand dancing for lives.

Not money related, I'm considering starting an ask blog on tiktok. It's just I don't do digital art so it would take a lot of materials and space to do and ask blog. Doing more art is a pretty good goal. I should enjoy life.

My First Post

Reposting 18 and 19th stuff

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But I feel like this.

But now I'm happy as these gifs are funny and Lilo and Stich always make me smile. Or I like seeing small children suffer?

Its not raining but I want to feel

like this.

I was making a sh*tpost page on NeoCities and Hotglue but this seems way easier. Don't mind me, just rounding up everything I already did.














19th

◾ I am feeling lots of feels right now and I am not 100% sure why. I had all sorts of grand plans but now I just slumping on my bed. 😭

◾ I read some articles on NFT environmental cost and now 😱

◾ I was reading personal journals/diaries on Neocities/homemade pages and it really hit me how much even modern personal blogs feel like they're trying to sell me something but these diaries felt like actual diaries. 🤯 Meanwhile this is just my not!Twitter.

◾ My feelings but on Hotglue.me (https://jrs-storytime.hotglue.me/?jan_19_2022/). Sometimes I like to just drag and drop gifs. [I recreated this above quickly, very impressed!).

18th

◾ I wonder if making a Dreamwidth would be more efficient, but I also don't really want to mess with blogging software. Guess I will find out. 🤷🏽

◾ Every year I trick myself that January I won't feel awful. Maybe I should just accept I am not feeling great and await the better seasons where I will go out and do more. Like why am I even stressing about when its slushy and gross out. I'm not going anywhere. 🌨️

◾ Despite this I am feeling really proud of myself right now. I am making going out a bit a regular thing. Nothing crazy, just running more errands and it's not scary anymore (I have agoraphobia and am working on it). It's nice to know I can be relied upon. 😁

◾ One day I will look into if I have autism (anxiety doctor recommended it) but I'm struggling just to see basic doctors on time. 😬

◾ Living with my mom is kind of weird. We used to fight a lot. It's even weirder as it's my house and "I am caring for her" even though she is actually doing pretty well and just doesn't handle living well alone. It's nice I guess. 🤷🏽

JR Signing off for now.

Learning Black/ ASL

Vision 2022

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I'm throwing language learning on my vision board! I'm going to do everything it takes to become efficient at a different language by the end of this year! It doesn't have to be just one. My top two are currently French and American sign language.The problem with language learning tips is that it's really ableist and how everything you'll see is geared towards spoken, written, and reading languages. Of course, sign language is different. For the most part, the rules apply and it's just going to take some experience to weed out what's not going to work.

I'm going to commit to learning American sign language in 2022! More importantly, black American sign language. The fact that I'm 33 and I'm just now finding out that there's basically Ebonics in sign language means I need to get down on it!

Teeth

Vision

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I need to get braces and replace the teeth that I lost. Dental stuff costs a lot of money, but I will make that money and then some!

Money ideas

Vision 2022

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I think I've decided that I want to be a fortune teller for money. I definitely know what I need the money for. More sooner than later, I want a brand new laptop and tablet. A new phone is the goal for next year. It would be great if I could also find a better phone service so I could get off boost mobile, but that's more desired but not required.As much as I enjoyed doing remote sex work, I don't much care for men, and sex work is very much a male dominated clientele. There are a lot of sex workers that don't care for men, and they're definitely using the patriarchy to their advantage. I'm more the type that would rather and have nothing to do with people that I don't like. Not to say I won't read men's tarot, I'm saying I don't want to work in a male dominated clientele field.

Shortly after I moved to Minneapolis, I want to be a bike mechanic because it's a very lucrative business here. It's also possible to be a traveling bike mechanic. It's not like biking repairs are going to go anywhere.I've also recently opened up guilt-free sex ed, kink, and transgender talk spaces. Very unprofessionally and non-medically, of course. I don't have any degrees or certificates. Nothing illegal will be discussed.Everything will be done online, of course.💡

resolution

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for new years, i want to write more

i'm having trouble reaching out to other authors for collabs even though i really want to. makes me anxious. i'd like to stop that

The Beast (Haunts Me) --->

get more confident and get more creative, that's my resolution. it is late but it is mine

Moped and E folding bike!

Vision 2022

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Transportation without a big ass car!

I love the size and convenience! No one will ever see me coming and I can sneak right by, passing people in traffic!

Gym membership/ staying healthy!

Vision 2022

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A gym membership would be helpful while traveling through the United states, whether I'm on the go or lot or stationary. I would like to get a membership at a national gym, but a lot of them are really crappy. Local gyms have better programs.The reason why gym membership is important, especially as an in-house person, it's wi-fi, a shower, a locker, a lot of things that help being unhoused be a lot easier. Of course that falls apart and it's a waste of money where there isn't a branch of that gym. It's a better strategy if I plan on sitting in a place long term, and long-term means over 30 days. Or I know I'm hopping from place to place where there's a branch of that gym. Or, I'm hopping from place to place and I'm in places where there's not a branch of that gym for a shorter period of time.

The greater point is that whether I'm stationary or transient, I have a place to work out. I actually love to exercise and a social setting! Buying one month memberships at local gyms wouldn't hurt either. Most of them have monthly plans. The goal is to be able to afford gym memberships however I need them, and utilize the gems for all they have to offer for whatever my situation is!

Money manifestation

Vision board 2022

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Sol

Knowing that I can throw money at almost any problem to make it go away, I am calling to manifest money!I moved immediate needs our housing and food. My long-term needs are fixing my teeth. And there's a lot in between. I also need money to make traveling easier, because I'm going to start doing that in spring. I also really really want a folding electric bike. I admit I don't need it, but it would make my life hella easier traveling! I'm also considering doing some traveling that will require a passport, plane ticket, train ticket, whatever else transportation money.I don't want to get ahead of myself in one post! One subject at a time! Money

It's a matter of what I'm going to do to get the money. Having a main job, working a side job and some gigs, fundraising my ass off. But I know I can't keep doing the same thing and expecting different results. I got to get creative as I'm going to make money. It also doesn't necessarily have to be a "job". What's important is it's generating money.

Vision broad blog! 2020

Multiverse might be great for this!

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Sol

I've started a vision board for 2022 because it's been a thing that's been talked about in my circles and very recent history. I figure why not?Since this site is very colorful and has a very unique way of moving pictures and text, this would be a great place to blog on my vision board. The visual only vision board is on my Pinterest @tatsuyoujo . I have blogger, but the obscurity of multiverse is what's drawing me to this platform for this purpose. Blogger just seems kind of "overworked". Given how live general went down the dream when it was bought by a Russian company, and Tumblr went down the drain when he got bought by Yahoo, aside from the multiverse, blogger is the only blogging website left. Not to say things didn't change for blogger after they were bought by google, but the fallout wasn't nearly as bad as those other two.

I'm glad I found this website, because this is going to be great!

CALLOUT POST FOR GABRIEL, JUDGE OF HELL

HOW ABOUT YOU JUDGE MY DICK AND BALLS YOU FUCKER

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YOU SEE THIS ASSHOLE? THIS DUDE IS NAMED "GABRIEL, JUDGE OF HELL" AND HE'S FROM THE HIT MOVEMENT SHOOTER, ULTRAKILL. YOU WANNA KNOW HIS PROBLEM, THOUGH????


HE'S A FUCKING BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! A LITTLE ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FIRST OF ALL, YOU SON OF A BITCH, THAT'S MY FUCKING NAME!!!!!!!!!! MY NAME! NOT YOURS! GIVE IT BACK!!!!!!! SECOND OF ALL, HE IS NOT NEARLY AS COOL AS HE THINKS HE IS! BITCH YOU ARE AN ANGEL!!!!! GUESS WHAT THE MAIN CHARACTER IS???? HUH???? GUESS!!!!!!!!! THE MAIN CHARACTER OF ULTRAKILL IS A ROBOT NAMED V1!!!!!!!! AND HE CAN WALLJUMP AND HAS A COOL PUNCHING ARM AND HAS GUNS AND HAS WINGS OF HIS OWN! WHAT DOES GABRIEL, JUDGE OF FUCKING NOTHING HAVE?????? BULLSHIT LAZER SPEARS AND TWO FUCKING PHASES. V1 ONLY HAS 1!!!! HOW ABOUT YOU COME DOWN FROM YOUR FUCKING HIGH HORSE AND FACE ME ONE ON ONE YOU PIECE OF SHIT, V1 DOESN'T EVEN NEED TWO PHASES BUT BECAUSE UR TOO SCARED TO BE BEAT BY A ROBOT UR ALL "NO! I NEED TWO PHASES AND ALSO IM WORKING FOR GOD AND ALSO UR A HERETIC ):<" FUCK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!! UR A BITCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ILL TEAR OFF UR WINGS AND EAT THEM FOR FUCKING BREAKFAST!!!!!!!!!!!


AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

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the crackers were

probably bad luck

anyway

Toy Car

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Here's a toy miata model I've made as a gift

I've used nail polish as paint, it's my first experience painting 3d prints tbh.

I think more coats would hide layer lines, but this was more of an experiment. It actually took me 2 days to paint it, even with small amount of coats

It's also the first time I've engraved anything with my CNC machine.

It was simple, though I've messed up once and set movement speed to twice as much as it was in my tests. I had to sand down the previous attempt and redo it. But it turned out nicely

downloaded aseprite

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learning how to make

little pixel animations