



I am currently trying out PJSEKAI for the first time.
Okay, that was a lie.
I've played it before, but ended up forgetting about it and just deleting my account. It was fun to play, but it's a story-oriented game, and I found it boring
I used to skip all of the cut scenes because I never really cared. Only played games for the gameplay, really.
You could say that I got more into reading, yeah?
I'm currently waiting for the game to finish downloading.
I'm a bit different now.
Praying for freedom from this pain. This ends at 18. Only a year and roughly 3 months to go. For the pain I will cause my darling I will never forgive myself; even as a ghost. Though I could promise her the temporary pain will be worth it. For she will no longer be subjected to the daily pain I am causing her now.
favorites off of Adam Lambert’s VELVET album
i. velvet
ii. overglow
iii. new eyes
vi. comin' in hot
iv. superpower
v. loverboy {live}
xii. stranger you are {live}
xi. supoerpower {live @ El Rey Theatre}
x. comin' in hot {live}
ix. superpower {live}
vii. overglow {live}
viii. new eyes {live}
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLsKlP-fFZiIPos9aAFY0dLnnfgw_bQccA
I’ve started working on a neocities website to keep a record of everything as this goes on. It’s a strange situation I’m in. Though not unfamiliar. I was in this exact situation in grade nine as well. Familiar, yet unsettling. It doesn’t feel real. My mind can’t comprehend it. I’ve disconnected it from reality. It more than likely won’t seriously exist in my mind until I take real actions towards it.
Read if you want advice for New Years Resolutions
I saw a video by the YouTuber CGP Grey that making new year's resolutions is quite useless and hardly anyone gets them achieved. So today I'll be writing down his tips here so y'all can read 'em and use his advice!
Say you want to "read x books per month" but you've already failed the first month, and are then demotivated for the rest of the year and completely forget your resolution. Then at the end of the year you'll remember your resolution from the start of the year and feel like a complete failure since you've achieved nothing. The next year, you'll pick another (or the same) resolution and the same thing will happen. (Unless you're a stickler to resolutions and are legendary enough to be able to achieve them.)
What you should do instead is pick a "theme" for the year. E.g. "Year of Reading". Bored at home? Take your book out and begin reading. Stuck in a long queue with nothing to do? Download some e-books and begin reading them!
This whole "theme" thing may sound broad but that's the way it's meant to be. There are no limits, no deadlines, so you're completely free of the pressure of having to get x things done before a certain date.
This year I've picked something quite broad for my theme and that is "Hard-Working" and it is going very well. I was able to clear my entire room, almost on my own, which was very hard work. It's done now - I got that done in a week.
And, if you don't really like it, you can always alter it as you go along and fitting it to your liking - it's also okay to narrow it down as the year goes on. Let's say you picked "Year of Creativity" and you decided to try songwriting, but after a few months decided that playing music was more your thing. Or maybe you picked "Art" but found that you enjoy reading more. It is completely fine.
So pick a theme. Anything! Here are some ideas of what you could do:
-family
-social life
-creativity
-being kinder
-health
-being tidier
CGP Grey's YouTube Channel: (2) CGP Grey - YouTube
Here is the link to the video that inspired this (Highly recommended): (2) Your Theme - YouTube
1. 8. 23
i have been creatively blocked for a couple of years now. investing energy into social media is my biggest regret. i find myself questioning my instincts more and more as time goes on. i feel bad for people who never got to experience a non-corporate internet. i can't imagine being wired to crave external validation so early in life. i'm grateful that i have a reference on what it was like to be young and in love with yourself. there is something very childlike and free about being in love with your own ideas.
this year i fully commit to expressing myself without bounds. i will create more and dig deeper into the parts of myself i have deemed evil. i have no intention to be a new version of myself, but embody someone who was there all along. for the first time in my life i am very aware how easy it is to lose yourself in the real world, and no longer am allowing myself to be tethered to it.
Bring Pro Korfball to the United States this sport its not the gender but those that have the mindset to win the game one way or another. In this case we want this sport to be more inclusive for those who are transgender. In Korfball the teams have some offense and defense units each have 2 women and 2 men for each unit. The Point is that if we want to mainstream korfball in the United States we need to test it in areas without an NBA Team. This is the way we can introduce a sport that is more inclusive to a Trans person.
So far sports in general have only assumed people are born as Straight, Gay or Lesbian but never considered a trans athlete as a reality or we have to find out about that after they retired. In able for Pro Korfball to succeed in the USA we need to look how the sport succeeded in places like the Netherlands, Germany, Denmark and so on. Also we need to get some league executives to the USA and some investors to join in the formation of the league.
Here are the cities we need to consider when forming a Korfball league: If it were to happen we need to aim for large cities without an NBA team for consideration.
West Central East
Seattle Austin Pittsburgh
San Diego Nashville Jacksonville
Honolulu Kansas City Albany
Las Vegas Cincinnati Raleigh
Note this is a test run for now before we hit the larger cities like New York, Los Angeles, Chicago, Washington DC, Dallas, Houston, Boston and San Francisco. Also the league must address social issues in their respective cities for the league to show they are in touch with their community. All of this are proposals that need to be in concrete at some point. Hope for the best if anybody wants to execute ideas in this proposal.
1/7/23
Hello everybody!! I've decided to start journaling in 2022, and decided it would be easy to do it here.
1/7/23
Hello everybody!! I've decided to start journaling in 2022, and decided it would be easy to do it here.
Journaling is one of these, and it'll most likely include goals for the week or tracking small, yet important things that have happened
I have many goals for 2022, most of which is a way
to finally get myself back on track.
I have many goals for 2022, most of which is a way
to finally get myself back on track.
Journaling is one of these, and it'll most likely include goals for the week or tracking small, yet important things that have happened
Hello everybody!! I've decided to start journaling in 2022, and decided it would be easy to do it here.
070123
-- okay so HEY I'M BACK AA SORRY BOUT THAT SLKDFJ
-- had fried rice today for breakfast?!!?
-- working on a report due next next week but i chose to work on it today because why not
-- feeling like writing a micro fiction piece or two this aftie
-- might code something too this evening ooo aa
life stuff
My school's open house was so fun but o so tiering
I forgot to record what medea I wact/read soI barly remember any of it lmao
Idk why my anxiety decided to level up every winter like dud let me exist lmao
I also got Fryday and Tuesday off becos my teachers got some random days off as thanks from the government for teaching doing covid
I gut my crush for secret Santa so how is winning in life s
I got haff a day of pretty much just the overtime I spent which was nice
they removed haff the trains and now the 16(4pm) train is so packed I'm legit never going to take it agen. Dis means I'm going to take the 5 train most weeks.
probs going to juse the extra time to study at the library especially sins the 4 train has so many people to make makes me stimulated
I'm turning 18 in 2023 so the government is spaming me whit ads to join the milatary
oh hello! :D im gekko, i also go by gex!
isnt it fascinating there's still so many little corners of the web that're mostly unheard of, but still waiting to be found? a lot of the internet nowadays has been dominated by a few huge techgiants and its very easy to fall into the current of algorithms, likes, views, and "engagement"- but going out and finding unique websites and communities is like leaving a huge city bombarded with advertisements and flashy billboards and constant surveillance; and then discovering little towns and communities outside of it- completely unique and filling you with curiosity and wonder
its honestly very comforting that the true purpose of the internet is still around, even if it isn't really the norm anymore
...wow thats a lot of words lmao XD
anyways i really hope i'll use this site more often; theres so many websites that i find and dont use or can never find again
i'll admit that its very strange to not worry about likes and comments and if anything i post or make will get "popular"- it was even a little discomforting at first to have complete freedom because i wasn't sure what to do with it
but it feels good to have that freedom now :3
i found this site through tumblr and it looks extremely cool- i didnt even know this existed until now
uhh i think i'll make a separate about me post after this one- dont want this to be too long ROFL
i'll see ya later!
Hii everyonee I've been feeling super burtnt out lately. not really lately... since like november I think. I don't know atp. I'm just gonna blame it on Jasper and go about my day. We talked a bit through email the other day. it ended surprisingly well. I miss him. We weren't good people to each other. We're both pretty toxic. Him more so. Who cares
Little to no formating for this post, i'm tired. I just kinda wanted a space to talk, but no reply.
i dont even really feel like typing. i'm so tired. i should go to bed soon.
pov: the only resolution i actually kept
2022 GOAL: READ 100 BOOKS
STATUS:
complete
51. 08/11 - zachary ying and the dragon emperor
52. 08/12 - we do this 'til we free - abolitionist organizing and transforming justice
53. 08/15 - gifts
54. 08/16 - mutual aid
55. 08/17 - the shoemaker and the tea party
56. 08/22 - the prisoner
57. 08/24 - the still **
58. 08/26 - the king
59. 08/28 - tiamat's wrath
60. 08/29 - freedom is a constant struggle
61. 08/31 - leviathan falls
62. 09/01 - dreaming in chinese
63. 09/02 - the catcher and the rye
64. 09/05 - manga in theory & practice
65. 09/21 - at dusk
66. 10/07 - daily rituals
67. 10/09 - memory's legion
68. 10/09 - luteniant nun
69. 10/14 - my senpai is annoying
70. 10/16 - chainsaw man part 1
71. 10/22 - fire punch
72. 10/24 - voices
73. 10/26 - the poppy war *
74. 10/26 - the grapes of wrath
75. 10/28 - klara and the sun
76. 10/31 - strange beasts of china
77. 10/31 - the prince
78. 11/02 - supernova era
79. 11/03 - of mice and men
80. 11/05 - empire of the vampire
81. 11/06 - hua hu ching
82. 11/09 - aurora rising
83. 11/10 - tao te ching
84. 11/11 - the sunbearer trials
85. 11/16 - the dragon republic
86. 11/20 - beginner's guide to community based art
87. 12/01 - a hero born
88. 12/03 - tai chi chuan and meditation
89. 12/05 - powers
90. 12/08 - the burning god
91. 12/11 - the secret history
92. 12/11 - taoism
93. 12/14 - the diaries
94. 12/15 - ruinsong
95. 12/17 - buddha in your backpack
96. 12/18 - the metamorphosis
97. 12/19 - death of a salesman
98. 12/22 - interview with the vampire
99. 12/26 - in an antique land
100. 12/31 - the strange case of dr jekyll and mr hyde and other stories
KEY:
bold - favorite
# of * - level of increasing favorite
REFLECTION: did i read a lot? yes. did i like it? yeah sure. will i do it again? probably not.
1. 01/01 - grandmaster of demonic cultivation vol 1
2. 01/05 - anyway the wind blows
3. 01/11 - leviathan wakes
4. 01/12 - iluminae
5. 01/16 - heaven official's blessing vol 1
6. 01/21 - caliban's war
7. 01/25 - abbadon's gate
8. 01/28 - the sirens of mars
9. 01/31 - verdant hopes
10. 02/15 - atomic habits
11. 02/?? - one small step can change your life
12. 02/25 - what i talk about when i talk about running
13. 02/26 - the song of achilles
14. 02/27 - iron widow *
15. 03/22 - cibola burn
16. 03/22 - frankenstein **
17. 03/25 - grendel
18. 04/08 - night
19. 04/09 - tastes like war
20. 04/30 - nemesis games
21. 05/03 - train to pakistan
22. 05/08 - the memory librarian
23. 05/11 - shadow lines
24. 05/12 - rocannon's world
25. 05/14 - planet of exile
26. 05/16 - city of illusion
27. 05/20 - left hand of darkness
28. 05/21 - the dispossessed
29. 05/22 - hainish stories
30. 05/23 - the unquiet ghost - russians remember stalin
31. 05/25 - babylon's ashes
32. 05/26 - lord of the flies
33. 05/28 - botany in the field
36. 05/30 - anarchism
37. 06/02 - the lives of others
38. 06/04 - the low land
39. 06/05 - the ultimate guide to homeschooling
40. 06/11 - beastars
42. 07/08 - always coming home
41. 07/10 - anarchism & other essays
42. 07/13 - persepolis rising
43. 07/20 - avialae
44. 07/24 - bakunin - the creative passion
45. 07/26 - a soldier's story - revolutionary writings of a new afrikaan anarchist
46. 07/31 - tablet & pen - literary landscapes from the middle east
47. 08/03 - the circle of reason *
48. 08/04 - moon of crusted snow
49. 08/09 - the modern school movement - education and anarchism in the united states
50. 08/10 - freshwater
Dec 31 2022 9:04 PM
I accidentally deleted my tumblr of 11 years. I stumbled across this website thru neocities and I think it can be just the thing I'm looking for.
In 12 days I'm meeting a boy I met on the internet. I'm texting him right now and I don't really know if I want to meet him any more.
It's the last day of 2022. These pictures are from my now defunct blog.
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